The Life of Minnie St Claire

Well I have moved on

2010-06-08T09:28:00.002-04:00

Hello everyone,

I am sure your wondering why there hasn't been a new blog in a very long time. That is because a lot has changed with me and working IAcash.com

So everything about me Minnie has been moved to www.minniecam.com

Dinner Party phase 1

2009-09-05T09:30:00.000-04:00

So I decided to host my first dinner party for 2 reasons I am enjoying my cooking and I want to share it plus I am way way overdue for house warming party.

Since I am all settled in my apartment with furniture, and it feels like home I figure I would invite people over for a good meal and some fun. I actually have no idea what I am doing for this party I just told me to come and hope they will as I have seen my family host parties this way I figure it will work for me too. I would see my mom be in the kitchen from about 11am until about 6pm til dinner is served right until 1am cleaning up looks like I inherited another thing from my mother the need to please everyone.

So I went into one of my favorite Jamaican cookbooks and decided it times I share what I have been practicing in the kitchen. Right now cooking seems to be in phase 1 thawing the meat. Current in my fridge to thaw I have pork chops, ox tail/mixed with stewing beef, chicken, and goat. the fish will be thawed out Sunday morning as I am cooking the harder cooking meats.

Since so many of the dishes require tomatoes I might have to go out to the fruit stands and get some so I have enough for each meal that requires it mostly just goes into the marinade portion but I will also have some for garnish and in the salad.

Review - Hardcore Profits Documentary

2009-09-04T22:22:00.000-04:00

I recently came across online a documentary about the porn industry. It's based in the UK how they explore the porn industry of how accessible it is and how you can get porn virtually anywhere. A big thing for them is that you can get porn from your TV with a few clicks of the remote and also how you can access porn from any mobile netbook or laptop, hotels, and cell phones. Yes even cell phone companies are making huge money from porn they mentioned how it's making $1.7 billion dollars

They are even in one of the South African countries and watching porn in a mud hut. L.o.l a mud hut.

These people are concerned how with porn so accessible everywhere that porn will no longer become taboo and something that everyone will accept. Being in porn myself and having wonder how easy it was for me to get into porn because it was so easily access from my family home computer. I am starting to think porn might become a little bit over populated. What kicked me is that the guy in the documentary is on his cell phone on the 3G network and in a webcam site and SMS chatting with a webcam model for 1.50 euro a minute to talk with a webcam model. He finds it ridiculous but I find it brilliant, your on your cell phone and the model is at home or in a webcam studio making money.

I strongly believe technology advances faster now based on peoples demands of viewing porn. If we didn't need high-end, fast speed , streaming video we would all be on dial-up. Of course they touch base on porn 2.0 which is all those tube sites of where anyone can upload porn, and it can be accessed by anyone, you might have heard of then pornotube, redtube, xpeeps, redtube, rude it's the social networking for porn. What will porn think of next actually they have thought of something they have thought of a way to connect a sex toy to your computer that you will i.e put in your fingers or penis into the toy and the toy will stimulate you. Wow they have the CEO of pornotube talking about how her pornotube only makes money from advertising. The site was started in 2006 and now is the top 500 website in the world. DAMN ! she must be making alot of coin. You got girl !

They do have a toy on the market for a while now maybe about 4 years called a sinulator some cam girls on privatecamz.com use it. It use to be offer on imlive cam shows but imlive decided to take down that feature, but sure enough technology and porn are plugging away and coming up with new products and services for Joe Blow to use in the comfort of the access of internet it's not longer in the comfort of your private home. Anywhere that has a screen and internet your connected to your fix of porn.

Well I also learned how Visa and Master card make their % from porn being purchased in any part of the world from any form. This guy really goes into deep of the porn profits from every angle. Wow if Visa and master card one day to become morally against porn transactions from the net they would cripple the porn online business. The Visa and Master card really got me thinking seriously about how I can last in porn which pretty much is dictated by online payment processor.

This guy really gets into places that I have never seen any documentary narrator do before. He even gets talking with a porn starlet who was filming for a porn that will be aired in hotel pay-per-view she seemed a bit new to the business or just rolling with the punches. He asked her if she enjoyed the scene because to him she appeared in pain and enjoyable in her work, but she told him it's just for the scene and how it might not be her best work.

From myself being filmed for porn not always when you do a scene your in the sex mode since it is a job and that your put in a situations where you just have to do your best. I have been in a few scenes where I didn't even get my orgasm on film.

He touches base on the HIV scare back in 2003 when 3 porn stars contracted HIV and he talked with the male porn star about how he feels about the lack of condom use in porn and he rather have condoms on. He also gets in contact with Wicked Pictures who is one of the biggest condom only companies and gets talking with Randy Spears and he is for condom-only scenes which is good to know. Which I totally agree with him condom-only which is what I film for my videos for my site and also I agree with Randy Spears I think the if the porn industry does not get a handle on condom-only porn we risk a pandemic of HIV.

Omni Hotel chains, Travel Lodge are no-porn films in the hotel rooms, because they want to keep their hotels family oriented which is a good choice on their part to respect the choices of their guest.

I pretty much gave away a good portion of this documentary but it is a documentary of porn I have never seen done before on the side of where is making money and what the industry will be doing to make changes.

If you would like to see the full documentary I suggest going to see it on http://www.ninjavideo.net/video/37858

Turbo Jam - Learn & Burn

2009-09-03T21:10:00.002-04:00

I recently purchased Turbo Jam from the beachbody website. It came in a few days ago I opened the package and kinda ignored it. but about 10 minutes ago I tired the work-out. I got fed up of going to a gym and paying ridiculous gym fees and being sucked into unwanted trainer packages.

So here I am slowly struggling and plugging away at Charlene work-out turbo jam and I have no idea what I am doing my eyes are watering, my cats are running around I am trying not to step on them and I am actually burning a sweat I am like how is this possible but I know I haven't been getting any type of pshychial activity and sex does not really burn those calories or keep you in a full body shape.

Well after a cool down, drinking some water I would say so far I am happy with my purchase for the infamous excersise work-out video industry.

Home at last

2009-09-01T12:32:00.004-04:00

So it's Tuesday I am more or less settled in from my trip from Montreal. I came home to a place that was a mess from having 3 kittens living without parental survision for 4 days and about 3 and half nights. I did have a friend come in and check on the cats but of course like children they know how to be good when an adult is around.

I came in Toronto around 9pm ish. I hailed a cab was the best thing to do since I did have a small accident in Montreal, my suite case feel hard on my right big toe while in Montreal. You wouldn't believe what I had to do to mend it I got out my make-up cotton pads and to the hold the pressure and ease the pain I wrapped it up wtih a condom and fished out my runners from my suite case and a pair of socks. Toe is feeling a little better I can walk on it , but my littlest kitten is enjoying the fact I am injuried and feels the need to attack my toe and hear me scream out some serious bad words.

Now it's the first of September and I am trying to figure out how to have a successful month, I made some connections while I was in Montreal also met the faces of the people I chat with online mainly on ICQ or other places online I frequent everyone seems to be excited my website is coming along nicely just now for the hard part keeping it going and making money.

Seminar One @ Qwebec Expo

2009-08-28T11:29:00.006-04:00

So I finally get into a seminar, it took a while to get in because my webmaster isn't a good tour guide and also the hotel has specific rules of what signs can be posted in the lobby.

So I decided to get my feet wet and attend the newbie seminar. I came in late but I am slowly catching up alot of newbie companies. Its an open forum and questions with answers of the ins and out of starting a porn website. Since I am coming back to porn full time again I kinda need to give myself a refresher course. There is alot of things I learned as I went alone in porn but now it's time to really upgrade my skills.

Good thing about this seminar so far is that I am learning ways of how I can recreate my new image of being Minnie St Claire and also how I can bring Camgirl Minnie to a new level and also how I can maximize camgirlhandbook.com and any other project I decide to create in the sex industry.

Day 1 - Qwebec Expo

2009-08-28T08:21:00.003-04:00

So for some reason I am up at 7am, maybe because I am so use to being woken up by my cats that's why I am up. Last night we went to Newtown one of the parties was there, plus there is a hotel room party on one of the floors.

We took some nice pics of me and just hanging out at the event. but today seem to be an early start I got a shoot lined up at 12 ish and I plan on attending one of the seminars for newbies. Basically give you a run down of what its like to started in porn and what to expect. Since I have been out of the porn loop a long time I figure I would attend.

I am not sure what to expect since I have been working so hard on rebuilding and recreate my websites and my image so I am just going to roll with the punches.

2009-08-27T20:34:00.004-04:00

So I am here in Montreal again, launching my websites camgirlminnie.com and minniestclaire.com I can't beleive it took a whole year. Wow so far it just a slow night, I came in for the Qwebec Expo some webmaster porn networking thing.

I have shoots set up for my weekend I am here I leave on Sunday. I will things posted as things pop-up and also photos and cute video clips too.

What was funny we were in the elevator taking photos some flashy, some cutesy and the elevator popped open a man in a baseball cap was in there he said something I looked up and I had a slow delay of putting my dress back on then the lady most likely his wife look around the corn and I went red.

It's my birthday !

2009-02-11T23:40:00.004-05:00

So today is my birthday, I am one year old, and certainly a little wiser then previous years before. I spent my birthday with my mommy and my cousin we went out to dinner. It was nice, my mom also had flowers delivered to me which was nice. usually she will drop by with flowers. Also at dinner my mom mentioned she needs to stay with me for a few days which is going to make things a little dificult in my life, caus eof the way I earn a living, I am not sure how I can maintain a stable income with my mom around. it will be certain hard to do.

I also made plans for my furture career after I retire from being a camgirl and escort. I am going to purse the personal development/self help industry. I even attended an online seminar from Bob Proctor, he is the guy from the secret he has his own certification training out in Florida I do plan on taking it but first I want to invest in local training available for pshychology, and life coaching and other personal development training.

As I have mentioned in previous post I am a praticing buddhist of the SGI, Soka Gakkai International and I learn and pratice the teachings of Nichren Dishonen. I have recently decided to earn and receive my Gohozon for April 2009. I am very excited a big thing about my buddhist pratice is getting an authentic butsudan. I did find an online store that sells butsudan in the style I am looking for, So a big part of my goal right now is to get the butsudan and gain more of my faith and attain my true happiness.

Just a blog entry !

2009-02-09T11:38:00.003-05:00

Well it's been an interesting weekend, well mostly normal. I spent the weekend working like usual just with the escort agency, I was pretty busy mostly on Sunday. Saturday I got into a big fight with my madam but some how I guess she cooled off cause the next day I was booked 3 hours.

Also I have been having a migrain trying to solve an issue , I made a purchase for lubricant one of my favorite brands Elbow Grease that comes in the pump. but the company the main website of the lube charged my credit card and didnt send me the item instead they sent me an email claiming i need to send them more money for shipping. I paid about 70 bucks for the item and didnt receive it I am very pissed about that. Plus on top of that the website didnt give any warning how you need to select shipping. I have been sending them emails and also leaving them voice mail messages and no response.

The card company is very little help because it's a pre-paid mastercard from money mart, so if I wanted to make a dispute about elbow grease not sending me my items I would have to wait about 90 days for them to process what they do, this would never happen with a true credit card. but I guess you get what you pay for when your living within your means.

Also during last week I was shopping around for a remote pan and tilt head to help me with my cam shows. I did some research and there isnt much products out there that offer this great tool. from the looks of it Sunpak is not longer making thier product but offer a new one called Ebenk. and there is also trackercam but they have too many issues that I think I have posted in another blog.

I went with Ebenk, TrackerCam gave me a bad feeling in my gut, when I was talking to the owner maybe creator of the product. Ebenk I found on ebay, the seller on ebay seems to have decent ratings and answered my emails promtly and also gave me a tracking number that I can keep an eye on my product via FedEx website. Then this morning Canada Post/FedEx calls me and lets me know that my purchase from Mami Florida will have a tax charge on it for $23.95. I have already spend over $180 bucks on the item itself. Now I have to pay a custom tax. The tax might actually be worth it depending on how well the product works. So I will keep you guys posted on it probably will post a review of the ebenk automatic remote pan and tilt in the Ask A camgirl blog section since it's an optional equipment that cam performers use during thier live broadcast.

Also on Wednsday it's my birthday, I am looking forward to it in a sense but not like I was when I was a little kid. it's has a whole new meaning now, it's more of a time for me to reflect on previous years and plan for years to come. so in that planing stage I have decided that I have to put a serious action plan in going back to school. I discovered that I can enter into a University program that is made for people who didnt finish thier high school or dropped out from high school, I am in the proccess of slowly putting my application together I don't want to wait til the last minute, and also I need to really decide what I want the next 24 years of my life to be.

New laptop !

2009-02-07T23:12:00.003-05:00

I recently purchased a new laptop, it was an emergency purchase. buying this laptop thought me alot, 1; was that I need to make sure I have a decent amount of cash flow in my savings accounts for a various amount of life events and unexpect issues. Luckly I had some cash from last night, from seeing some clients so I was able to buy my new laptop, but as I was getting the laptop I also realized that technology changes way too fast. You really have to be flexible for change ay any moment when it comes to technology. Then again you need to be flexible for any changes that happen in life.

So I went having a Ispiron 6000, to a Ispiron 1525. I am very impressed with the new addition to my business, and also feeling quiet secure that I still have the ipsiron 6000 as a back up. I also in the proccess of saving up for a new desktop as well. I might end up going with a Dell again, Since I like how creative they make them and how smooth and slick most of thier laptop and desktop designs are.

With being in a technology business to some extent I need to make sure I can get a new technology as soon as soomething comes up, instead of pushing everything to the edge.

Arggghhh TrackerCam !

2009-02-04T20:46:00.002-05:00

So I have been looking foro an upgrade for my camera, I need a remote control tripod i.e pan and tilt first thing came to mind was to use trackercam. I discovered that trackercam was in my city Toronto, but I also discovered something else that made my shopping experience very dissapointing.

Even though TrackCam has an office in Toronto, it's not exactly an office it's just some guy who found the product probably going to some convesation and decided to market the companies website. The product is only available in Usa dollars even though you could get it in Toronto they wont accomodate the canadian price. and also they will only charge in us dollars.

I haven't yet bought the product i am not sure if I want some guy out of his basement apartment getting rich. I need to do more research to see if there is other options out there for a remote control pan and tilt before I drop out $200 for a remote control pan and tilt.

Prepation for a career coach

2009-01-27T22:57:00.002-05:00

In preparation for this meeting, could you please send us your thoughts on
the following questions:

1) How did you discover our firm?

Google

2) What motivated you to contact us?

I am in a point in my life where I want to transition into a new career, and I am in a different place in my life right now.

3) What do you hope to get out of the session?

I hope to get an action plan of my goals, and also a support system who wants me to achieve them.

4) How is your current situation impacting you personally and
professionally?

Well both proffesional and personal I feel like I am not using my full potential. I want to be in a place where everything I do I have a sense of joy and purpose and fulfilment.

5) Who else is this situation impacting and why is that important?

It is mostly effecting myself, I want to be glowing in all aspects of my life, so that others will gradually stop telling me how my life should but they will accept that my life is pefect for me because I have created it.

6) On a scale of 1- 10, how important are the career issues in your life at
the current time?

They are about a 8

7) Why do you want to start dealing with the issues around your career?

I currently started into a career that I thought I would do forever, because of various reasons and obstacles I had in my life, but now that I have worked through alot of challenges in my life I have realized that my first career choice was not a life sentence. it was a stepping stone to reach this point in my life of wanting more and being more.

8) What actions have you taken about this issue so far?

I have explored career coaches, and thought about what other career choices I could take. and I am proactive in attending as many seminars and workshops available to me.

9) What would be the likely outcome if you don't take action with these
issues upon your career?

I feel if I do not take action and change my career. I will grow to be unhappy and depressed, and resentful towards myself.

10) Was there a particular reason why you choose our firm to help you?

I am still in the screening proccess of deciding which coaching firm or career coach I will work with. but I want something that I know will give me the push and spark I need to have a fullfilling career/life.

11) What are the largest hurdles you anticipate needing to overcome in the
pursuit of your ideal career?

Education planning, and financial planning, will be a big challenge for me in going forward to a career that will end up being a new passion or life time passion.

How to find a husband - tv show

2009-01-24T00:01:00.004-05:00

So some how I started watching this tv series called "How to find a husband", it's about a british women who is abotu 37 years old and she is on a mission to find a husband. She says she had a dream of being married and with kids by time she was 30 but that didnt happen to her. Not like every life plan goes the way we picture it in our head.

So she gave her self 10 weeks to find herself a husband, by various of things, hiring a dating coach, also going on dating websites, single events, and posting ads in the paper, and trying to meet them in clubs, on the street and persona ads.

I ended up watching this show in my soul searching stage of wanting to find myself someone special in my life. I am not going as extreme as she is but you know what I think she is very brave and smart for what she is trying to do, She is basically saying if I want someoen in my life I have to find him because sitting around and complaining how your single isn't going to make you in a relationship or maybe even married.

Wow I am getting a money shock

2009-01-23T15:59:00.002-05:00

Well I have breifly talked about it in the past, that I have aquired a fare amount of debt in the years of being online, and now I am paying the price of that debt and bad spending in a big way.

I wanted to openly talk about it and I will also write up an entry on the ask a camgirl blogs to renforced this issue. but I wanted to admit to something here first. I must admit coming into the adult online porn world I had no idea what to expect when it came to the level of money I would be able to make from being online. It's a giant roller coaster some months are great where themoney coming from every where and others I dont know where i am going to get a dollar to get groceries.

Now I am in a new sense of awareness of my debt and spending habits. I have learned the hardway that I need to make sure that I value the money I make and treat it properly otherwise I will have nothing level to take care of myself.

I actually went to the steps of getting myself more aware of money management for myself and what I am doing with my money, by tracking my spending, and be aware of my expenses for business and also learning when to say "No" and of course saving for my future and retirement.

I wanted to let everyone know yes this business can be lucative but if your not smart with what you make financially in this business it can slip away from you very fast.

I adopted kittens ! I am a cat owner !

2009-01-21T22:39:00.004-05:00

For a long time I have been wanting to get myself a pet, at first I thought I would get fish, but I didn't want to put in the cost for them, since they are pretty expensive in the start up cost and they have a short life span. Then I thought about adopting a cat, since I am more of a cat person then a dog person. It was pretty easy since pretty much anywhere I am around cat they seem to be enjoying my company even if its for a short time. I had to really think about it I didn't run out and get one I went to pet stores and ask questions and also did research online about the proccess of adopting and what to expect and also ask cat owners.

Then it came down to really asking myself can I really devote a good porption of my life having someoen depend on me all the time for food, well being, and affection and pretty much get very little in return. Yea sure sometimes I might get them wanting a belly rub, but over all I am pretty much there for them for all their needs. I knew I didn't want to get a kittne or a cat from a pet store, something about them being in there gave me a bad vibe, plus of course the cost of buying them. In my neighbourhood I do see a lot of stray cats roaming around but it's not like I would be able to get one of those because they have thier own life style of being on the streets.

So I looked into the Toronto Humane Soceity, the one thing I didnt like about the humane soceity is if a kitten or cat or even any other animal they have there doesn't get to be adopted the end thier life which is not fair. So my final option was local cat rescues, I found them to be more welcoming and also their mission has a real loving to the kittens and cats enviroment they do not end the life of the kittens or cats if they do not get a good home. They will keep them til the end of thier own natural life, and they do everything they can to make sure they are healthy and happy and enjoying thier domestic lives.

It was hard to make choice of which kitten or cat to adopt. I basically spent months and months looking at the cat rescue websites trying to decide who will I adopt, and how many I can adopt and etc. I want to make sure I was really making the right choices for my life style and circumstances in my life right now.

Then January I said to myself I am ready I am ready to bring in a family member to my home and give them the love and attention I know how to give. I adopted 2 kittens they are about 5 months old. I named them Gynn and Tonic, they have been part of my life for the last 3 days and I am really happy they are in my life. I actually enjoy waking up in the morning feeding them and making sure they have fresh water. and giving them exercise and attention. and cleaning the litter box isn't that bad it just something tha tneeds to be done to make them happy.

I highly reccomend if your a cat lover, and want one in your life, to really think about the decission do not get one to get board of one day. Remember they are living beings who deserve love and respect and a good quality of life just like any living thing out there. So if your going to adopt a furry family member then make sure you can handle the full responsibility at any stage i your life.

Happy New Year !

2009-01-01T21:35:00.003-05:00

Happy New Year ! and also it is the year of the Ox, so congrats to everyone who is an ox like myself this year is our year and if you don't feel like it is ox or not make it your year. As we know last year I went through some hardtimes and I have over come alot of obstcles and challenges. and I am really happy that I have over those obstacles and push through my negative energy.

The minnieholly.com website was a big drama for me but I have certainly turned things around with that. by pushing foward with my online modeling career and focusing on my true passions and myself. Then my trip to Montreal really opened new doors for me and re-planned what I want my websites to be and how i want them. and also alot other advertisities I was going through in the year, but now lets focus on the plans for this up coming year and years to come.

My new year's eve was pretty much unplanned I got the idea pretty late that I would attend 25dates.com single's new years event, the tickets was approx $100, plus the cost of a cab, and also luckly I had an outfit to wear. the whole time I thought I was nuts of going to event by myself without knowing anyone there and the whole process, but it actually was a bit hit for me. I seemed to hit it off with miguling with everyone there and talking to other singles about thier dating experiences, some have tried online dating and the telephone dating and it didnt go well for them but they all seem to have better results with attending a live event face to face event of speed dating or a social event even if they don't end up in a romatic relationship wiht someone they meet at the events they do end up making new friends.

my night was pretty interesting, I ended up talking to alot of people more then I expected, and even had some men hit on me, one guy even asked for my number and drove me home which I thought was very nice. so I am pretty much waiting for him to call me and let me know he is interested and maybe go out with him a few times. but I am not in a rush. I am taking this dating proccess very slow.

What a day !

2008-12-27T19:35:00.002-05:00

So last night I got an outcall around 1:30 am ish for maybe later wasnt sure cause I was at the hotel to see the client at about 2:30 am for an hour appointment. It was weird like he seemed like a young guy who could get a girlfriend if he wanted to do but he decided to call me. I arrive about 10 minutes early, the hotel was a interesting the conceriege was a big asswhole.

I arrive to the room and gave him a big hello, and a hug. then we got to talking and I noticed I have a lot in common with him maybe even if I met him in a different environment I could date him, but oh well I don't date my clients that is a big rule of mine, I get home around 4am but first stopping at mcdonalds, it was breakfast which was which since usually it's around 6am Mcdonalds serves breakfast.

I am in line waiting to order and these 2 girls walk up behind him and I swear they look like strippers or call girls, apperently they said they were coming form the club but clubs in Toronto close around 2 am so what were they doing for 2 extra hours around downtown beats me didnt care to much, What pissed me off was these really abnoxious guys were hitting on the girls and then some how attempted to hit on me, I was not impressed or interested in them at all, plus they were youngin's probably around under 18 years old. I couldnt stop laughing when they were trying to hit on the girls cause they kept saying over and over "So, Where are you from?" and this weird song just popped in my head. I am from holland and where are you from something like that there is many versions of it but damn it's fucked.

Then I get my breakfast I eat my Sasuaga egg mcmuffin and hasbrown and frutpia strawberry and went home, then I had to wake up pretty damn early around 8am ish to attend driving school I plan on being a fully liscence driver sometime in the next 2 years and be buying my first car. So I did the driver school first day was pretty cool slowly my fears of driving are going away. and this week I meet with my dad for my first time in the car experience. Pretty excited.

Then also in the run around of living life, I have also thought about the idea of starting my own business from scratch. A Speed Dating/Matchmaking service business I know very little about matchmaking but what I do know is alot of people feel that the online and tele-personalls are gettin very old and boring and too many bad expereinces with it at least for me anyway.

So I have decided to change the whole dating expeirnece around a little well not really more like making another option of singles wanting to meet singles and meet and greet and have fun.

Happy Holidays Everyone !

2008-12-25T00:27:00.002-05:00

So it's the night before Christmas and I am alone in the house. It's pretty much just another regular work day in my house, my mom is working so is my dad they have no big plans for Christmas. So I decided to join the family and work as well. So basically I have started a jump on my plans for the new years I plan going to a single event part of my journey of speed dating to go out for new years eve. I have to buy myself a nice dress for new years eve, and maybe get my hair done. I plan on making my new year great even if it's me alone.

I start college in the new year as well. Going to be getting my diploma in web design. that is a a year course and I also start driving school on the weekend pretty excited about that, lol I have already started planning on the car I want for myself in about 2 years or less. Also I am getting my breast done, I am tired of lying to myself, Other people are very happy with my breast but I am not happy with them at all I hate the way I look naked but I am ok with the way I look in a bra, but that is not acceptable for me.

Also a big plan for my new years resolution is to go on an actual vacation some where nice. I never been on a real vacation before of fun in a nice relaxing place so that is something I will be looking forward too. Also getting myself more invovled in my faith of being a buddhist that is also a big thing for me this time in my life and writting my memoir.

My quest to find a mate

2008-12-23T10:26:00.002-05:00

So I have been single for about like 4 years maybe longer, it's not something I am keep track of, but I know I feel like I am missing something. True companionship and a bounding relationship with someone.

So I pretty much taking this journey seriously no I am not looking for a husband but I am looking for someone to date. I am keeping my options open as much as possible I got alot going on in my life and I need to slowly get myself open to the idea of having a relationship. I have done the girlfirend thing with the whole being bi-sexual and I have learned alot about that relationship I am no so into girls as much as I thought I was. I pretty much just enjoy having an extra pair of hands getting me off ... hehehe

but you guys will be happy to know I am strictly dickly. so in my quest to be strickly dickly I need a special someone to keep me happy and be caring and supportive in my life. So in the new year I plan on taking sometime out of my business to find a mate and get myself being more socialable attending speed dating events and single events. Even if I don't find someone special I will have the possibility of meeting new people.

I am very excited to add this new journey to my life. Of course I will be keeping you guys updated on my events I attend and possible people I meet.

Going to try speed dating

2008-12-20T00:54:00.002-05:00

So I have been single for a long time, I have been wtih men but never really had a true healthy relationship, and I am not getting older I would like to experience having a real boyfriend in my life at least once. I am not looking for a husband or a long-term relationship but definitely dating someone I really like would be nice for the new year.

I know I pretty much convienced myself that I wouldn't be able to find a man because of what I do for a living that is pretty much just a bunch of garbage. So I am taking away all the garbage of what I have been told that is wrong wtih me and what I am not able to get and get myself out there and open to the idea of dating and possibily finding a man.

I know it won't be easy but I am not really looking to do the club stuff or the bar stuff, or blind dates, I have done the internet dating and telephone dating stuff, I think speed dating meeting people face to face talking to them for a few minutes should be a good jump start to tell them world to send me a man.

I woke up way to early today

2008-12-16T09:45:00.004-05:00

I woke up way to early today then I usually do. First I got woken up by a phone call my Satelite dish is being installed today, at first it was set to be installed for Sunday but I have been waiting almost a year to get my HDTV and my tv up and runing with programming. Sometime ago I owed the cable company $1300 they fucked up my bill and I couldnt keep up with the payments. Then it went into a downward spiral. I ended up watching my favorite programs on the net on 2 intersting websites, it became an obession that I had to watch Nip/Tuck.

Plus I have changed my lifestyle alittle bit I have been going to the gym, I have myself a personal trainer and a gym membership but I actually use it on a regular basis. I am at a happy 120lbs and I will like to keep it and tone it up to a nice tight shape. it does not make any sense for me to get lazy and let it all go to waste. Trainer has me on a meal plan and I am at the gym 3 times a week. it's pretty intense to know how much my muscle arent being used to it's full potential. but the trainer did mentioned that my ass muscles are being over worked he made a joke how it's from too many orgasms which might actually be true.

Also plans for the new year. I signed up for a college course, going to be getting my diploma in web design. So soon I will be designing my website in more detail instead of hiring a web designer and pay him and arm and leg and have to chase him down for every little thing my website needs. I might also offer my web design services to camgirls out there who will like their own website, maybe even some escorts out there too. Also I plan on taking a few more college courses then finsih off my high school diploma and jump into my dream career. but first I need to work on the web design course before I pile on more courses.

Also sometime in the morning, when I check my email I got some interesting fan email. a guy named Craig

minnie

Ive been following your blogs for some time now and am really intrigued by you. I signed on as a member of your old website with which you are no longer affiliated.

You are incredible in the videos. The website, however, is a complete rip off. The promises made of updates are of course never fullfilled. Ive noticed on your blogs you are escorting now. If you end up in the US somehow, post it in a blog. I would love to meet you. I think theres alot of money to be made out here. If you dont plan on escorting in the US, then simply take this as a complement. You are a amazing little woman

oh yeah, can I go anywhere and find your videos other than the old site?

Have a nice day

Craig

He seem to be following me for a long time, not sure how long but it's good to know people are getting the message about the other website of me that is out there. Rebuilding my new website, and pretty much starting my whole internet business all over again hasn't been easym but it has been the best choice I have made for myself to stay in business.

Plus this year hasn't been easy with a lot of things I am suprised of how quickly I bounced back and moved on to a more productive path. Good things are only to come now, becuase Ia m making sure I think of myself first.

Pretty normal day

2008-12-09T20:45:00.003-05:00

So today was a pretty normal day for me, I did some running around paying off somethings I have on layaway, went to the gym did my work out, and found out that my left rotator cuff is pinching some serious nerves. So now I am looking aroud for a sports clinic to help with the pinching nerve I have. Then in the late evening I went to get pizza, and the guy behind me was asking for my number, trying to chat me up, and he was ordering his slice when it came time for him to pay for it, he decided to use his credit card, and it declined twice, Then he turned around asking for an answer and I was like ummm no you can't even buy a slice of pizza, why would I give you my number.

The way I see it is if a man can't even buy a slice of pizza for $3.15, then he will have a hard time support me if we ended up dating. Not that I need a lot but if I am on a day where I am hungry and I feel for pizza I wouldn't want to worry if he can afford it. Then also chilling at home, watching my show The L word, my mom calls me and tells me that my uncle pasted away. Feeling kind of bummed about it but not so much, I wasn't really close with him, but my mom is pretty shaking up by it, so you know I am going to be the nice big daugther and be there for her as much as I can til she bounces back.

Helix peirced and I am having some issues with it

2008-12-07T00:28:00.005-05:00

So sometime in the summer I peirced my helix, I wanted soemthing to complete my new look, since I got my ear lobes done, and they look great. With getting my helix pierced I had a lot more issues then I expected. Yes when it first got pierced the damn thing hurt like a serious bitch. I was screaming take it out the whole time my piercer was pushing in the needle. She told me to use a sea salt spray that they offered in the begining it was working great, but she forgot to mention avoid sleeping on the side of my piercing ... I should have got it done on the left side and not the right ... This is where I found out I sleep more on my right side then my left.

Then about November or so I noticed a weird painful bump. I went back in and ask them about it. they said it was hypotro scarring or something I can't spell the road, but they told me to stop using the sea salt spray and do a sea salt soak. The difference is that I have to use giant cotton balls or pads and soak them in the sea salt and hold them there for about 5 to 20 minutes. then rinse really well with warm water. and then do a clear water warm water compress it does ease the pain but not as much.

Then around December few days ago I had to go back again the bump got bigger and more painful. Thank god it's not a keloid my family doctor didn't know what it was the scar tissue and told me to go back to my piercer because it was infected and not anything she could do about it. Went back to the piercer they were shocked of how big it got and told me to keep using the sea salt soak, and asprin paste. The asprin is actually pretty great completely stops the pain I put it on a night and sleep with it on and during the day if I am having pain I put it on again.

I did some surfing online checking out piercing message boards, who knew there would be so many of them around. but basically they are saying to do the same thing that I amd doing already the sea salt soak, and asprin, but also some are trying tea tree oil which I have used before for my nipple that I had done about 3 years ago ish. and camohmil tea bags soak on my ear.

I didn't take a pic of my helix because I am so concerned of the stat that it's in maybe around March I will take some pics of it just to give you guys a follow up of what is going on with it.

Went to a Terb party last night

2008-12-05T12:27:00.008-05:00

So last night I went to the TERB christmas party, if you haven't heard about terb you will now, Terb is basically the Toronto Escort Review Board, where hobbyist in toronto get to review their experiences with escorts they have seen in the area. Every year they host a christmas party, they have donations for toy moutain and basically a giant meet and greet for them to possibly see their favorites escorts or escorts they will like to see in the future, another name for escorts as well is service provider. You will hear me use various lingos of the call girl work in many differnet ways. My agency provided a limo service to drive everyone to the party and back to the pick up location. It was fun, lucky I got home by my driver he offers to drive some of us home. We packed up in the car and we were all really hyper. Don't worry there is pictures. Going to the party I got to learn a few things, that I can be very charming in many ways I talked with a few possible clients and also a client I have seen once before in a session.

I also gave my boss lady a gift, like I hoped she loved the card a little bit more then the gift. I got her a versce set. of perfume and shower gel. She gave me $3,200 bag I was like I can't even use it because it's so expensive. The event was at a strip club it was kinda of cool, the strippers there weren't sure who some of us girls were until they asked and noticed we are escorts and not strippers. In way you could kinda feel how jealous they are because we on their turf. Since these days the strip clubs aren't making that much cash anymore since guys who want a tease go to online porn or they get the full package of calling an escort.

One more thing I have been saving up for a LCD TV for quiet a while today I got to pay for it in cash. It felt so good I have been saving for something I have always wanted and got to give the sale guy cash and say I will take it.

No implants for me !

2008-12-03T02:33:00.003-05:00

This will be short I just wanted to say that I am finally turely happy with the size of my breast. I know I have been back and forth with the idea of getting implants, but all that back and forth gave my body time to grow and mature.

Which is something young woman should let happen before they decide it's time to go into surgery. I know growing up can be hard with everything going on in our young lives, but I learned something very important time does heal alot of things. So No ! I didn't get implants for those who are asking and as for the future right now as it stands I do not plan on getting them down.

I did a lot of research of what I would get and how I wanted them to look, but that time things have changed and it looks like for some real good.

Things are going really well for me

2008-12-03T01:44:00.003-05:00

As you know I have posted before that I am also escorting again, it's been a challenging transition to decide to go back to being a call girl, but I wanted to make sure I was comfortable with it before I added it in my blog entries. So it's been about 5 months or so since I have been back it I started up in August ish, I decided to go back to an agency it's much safer for me that way knowing there is always someone there to pick me up and check-in with. Going back I have learned alot about my strengths and what I value the most for myself, my health and well being. I also learned that I really enjoy helping people anyway that I can. Being a camgirl, internet porn star and escort is a big part of exploring that need of wanting to help people.

I also learned that I can really handle almost anything that is thrown my way. I am not sure if it's my new spiritual path that I have also found this year, but I feel alot more clear on the choices I am making with my life these days. Also in my new transitions I have also explored a lot of new vertures for myself one of them exploring the idea of being a sex educator, writing my memoir, and I also got my driving permit I start driving school during the christmas holidays, and I have started home decorating finally, right now I am painting my apartment and also looking around for the right colours and furniture to make my apartment a full home.

Upgraded my laptop today ! All by myself !

2008-11-29T13:52:00.003-05:00

So today I did some shopping, the plan was to get some R & R, but I figure I can do that next week this weekend it was more important to upgrade my laptop. I have a dell inspirion 6000. YUP, I know it's old but it's well taken care of. I new the memory was the issue since it was slow as hell, and driving me up the wall. so I did what I always do when I want to find out about something I went and googled and found video clips from various websites of how to upgrade your laptop. Luckly my model is an easy one the RAM panel is in the back of the laptop I just had to unscrew the panel and pop out the memory. I brought the memory with me to best buy. made it easier of buying what I need and less trips back to the store to make a complaint or exchange.

Also in the store at best buy , I helped a lady buy a webcam cause she wants to do video chatting with her boyfriend they have a long distance relationship. It was funny I almost told her what I do for a living being a cam whore and all. I got my DDR2 2 x 1 gig ram, and also another webcam. LOL I got 10 webcams in my place now . I only really needed 8 for my live house on rude.com but you never know back-ups are always good.

One thing I have learned about upgrading my computers by myself is that I can't bare having a computer tech guy looking around my harddrives finding my work stuff. photos and videos and etc. So this process has also thought to explore the idea of taking a computer repair course at one of the local colleges. Also in my not so big shopping spree I also bought clothes they had a sale buy one get the second half price. I didn't get much just a sweater and some wife beaters (tank tops)

I am a working girl ..... YES!

2008-11-25T00:06:00.003-05:00

So the last few months I have decided to go back into escorting, for many reasons but mainly to take care of myself, and it has been an interesting proccess. Going back in with a really good head space I have learned alot about myself. I decided to work with an agency in Toronto, visiting clients which is called an outcall. It's been about 3 months now. It's been a very rewarding experience, I learn more about myself each time I work.

I am at the point where I plan on doing this full-time right until I finish my university, so I am a complete working girl as in camgirl, internet model, and escort. Yea sure there is other names out there you could call me but the bottom line comes back to having a product and having customers who want to buy it. Which I beleive is the basic rules of having a business that I remembered from a few high school classes I did attend for marketing.

I might not have gotten the high school diploma the first time around, but I am learning alot more now then what high school could ever teach me. Real life experience and that things can be done more then one way. I have also learned that men will always find some way to get what they need sexually, and I just happen to be one of those people who is willing to give it to them now for the right price ... back in high school I was the girl who gave it all aw ay. It wasn't always rewarding more pain and heartache back then but now I am more in empowering place. Yes I will give you what I want if I get what I want first.

Watching shows like "Secret Diary of a callgirl" and the "Cathouse" has done alot for me such as break down some of the isolation I thought I had of being a working girl and also knowing that the way I feel about myself in certain moments is ok and very much my norm. As things process more of being a working girl. I will blog more about it. I think it will give both sides to who I am in my wonderful persona that I have created.

My beef with media peoples

2008-11-18T11:55:00.004-05:00

I have posted on here a few tmes, of certain media contacting me claiming they want me on their show. Tyra Show, Muary Show, the documentary series Webdreams and many others out there. I have big headache with all of them in so many ways. but I will try and keep this short.

The major thing I hate about these type of medias is they have little respect for the people they contact, actually they have none all together. They basically screen and screen, and then nit pick of what is wrong if you do not fit into the streotype of what they are looking for. but yet still they want to make it reality tv. Reality my ass !

Tyra show contacted me abotu 2 years ago, when they were looking for guess who are in the adult online industry, I stopped watching Tyra show for many reasons, one of them being she likes to think she is better then everyone because she has her tv show and gets to pick and choose who she lets on. Honestly I never liked Tyra even when I saw her do her interview on Howie Mandel show a long time and her bull shit acting on Fresh Prince.

Then Maury show, what really pisses me off about them is they draged out this bull shit how they want me on the show for MONTHS, first I got an email from them saying they found me on myspace and would be interested in having me on the show, What they really should say is if your in a labeling system of wha we think will sell ratings we would like to make a fool out of you and have you join our tv circus. The months that the show would contact me do phone interviews, and even to the point where they were asking how soon I could fly in I was bascically treated like I was nothing.

Then the bull shit tv series webdreams - Well they have many different research people, one of them told me my life is too boring for TV, then the producer himself said he hopes my life will get better. what the fuck is that suppose to me, the bastard doesnt even know me but telling me he hopes my life will get better.

So this is basically a warning for furture media people out there who think they can give me a round around and come into my life ask a bunch of questiosn and treat me like shit. FUCK OFF ! I do not have time for anyone wasting my time, media or not and your bull shit my people will call your people is just again more bull shit. I do not have time for it I am busy woman I have my life to live and part of living my life is being an adult entertainer (camgirl, porn star and escort) If your not serious about choosing for your bull shit tv series or tv show or interviews then find someoen else you can fuck around with !

Another thing .... this blog my go on longer then I expected but this is something that really pisses me off about the media. Just because you see my website, from your doing your soo called research you need to remember first I am a person wtih my own life. treat it with respect ! You see my website claim you want me on the show, and you do fuck all, expect waste up my time, run up my cell phone minutes, and your not interested. 3 years of this bull shit and guess what fucking media jackasses I plan on gettig bigger with my online career and if you think I am too damn noraml for tv then stop fucking contacting me and wasting my time.

More news !

2008-11-13T23:24:00.003-05:00

I recently check out my list of followers and I am amazed that someone would actually want to follow my blog, I am just an ordinary girl really. who happens to be on the internet in a very open and sometimes personal way. I have been busy with alot of things the last few months, I am still escorting part-time it's been an interesting experience in that feild but my passion of being in this industry of being a sex worker is camgirl, internet model. The website www.cumhogs.com just went live I am so excited since I will be able to get my new sites going in the next few weeks hoping to have everyting fully live by new year.

I finally choose my top webcam sites I will be working 6 of them . Yes ! 6 of them. and going back school in the new year. time to get cracking on my high school diploma and applying to universities. I will be a camgirl/porn star right up until I graduate. School doesn't pay for itself.

Couple days ago I got my first pay check from teasecamz aka webcams.com felt nice to open the mail box and see a check, the even best part of it is that the checks from webcams.com are also coming from the same insitution that imlive.com uses which adds some secruity to when I go on a site and put in some serious camgirl effort in making money.

Ummm .. what is going on with me, still praticing my buddhism following the teachings of Nirchen Diashonen. Single and not dating anyone. Relationship are too complicated with being on the inetenret and the odd time going out on an outcall to meet someone. I dont think I have the energy right now to throw in a relationship. Been working on the blog askacamgirl.blogspot.com. Sharing my wisdom and knowledge of being a camgirl, and it seems to be going well I have to add some more info on there and make it more user friendly.

For once in a very very long time things are going so well. that I can't even think of something bad.

Update on Minnie

2008-11-03T01:13:00.002-05:00

I know things have been really hetic lately. I have been all over the place tring to get things back in order. at the same time I also registered myself for school going back again to finish off my high school diploma. I have come to realize somethings in life need to end and move on to another especially when it comes to careers.

I love being a camgirl and things with being a camgirl are just geting started, but I need to prepare for my furture. I am not getting any younger, and I am really annoyed with people telling me I have a lot of time ahead of me because I am just 23 year right now, in a short while i will be 24 years old, and even though I have accomplished alot there is a whole lot more I have to complete and get started on.

I plan on being a camgirl for many years to come it all depends on how much it will cost to survive in the years of university. Since I plan on doing that in the next year or two. Also with the websites they are coming along as much as possible it isn't easy being a camgirl as some may think, a lot of behidn the scene work goes into being a camgirl. especially now that I plan on adding voyeur cams to the website.

I have come along way from the hard fall I have had in the last year, and things are going great as they came be considering with the circumstances I am currently in right now, I know you have been waiting patiently for my website to come out and wondering what the hold up is but if your really that impatient for it then maybe you should find someone else to be a fan of.

Minnie featured on cumhogs.com

2008-11-01T14:01:00.001-04:00

Remember a while back when I was shooting content photos and videos out in montreal. Well while I was there I also shot for the website cumhogs.com. They gave me a sneak peek of the tour, and I have a damn pig nose on my face. YUP! a pig nose, the scene was pretty cool I have no idea how it came out but I can't wait to see it for myself.

Here is a small sneak peek. a little birdy told me they are relaunching the site in the next few weeks or so.
The guy I got to work with we found him on an open casting call, the crew set up, so I had no clue who I would be working with but this guy made the cut he is a great newbie performer to work wtih. I had a lot of fun with it's amazing how you can find talent anywhere. He showed up on time, didn't hit on me at all which made my time very easy to focus on work and get ready for my scene, and he was a amatuer-proffesional in the making. You might see this stunt cock in my future work.
I really know how to swollow some cock, lol I can't believe I can see the veins popping out my head. lol The nose didn't even fall off.

LOL, when they gave me the nose said put this on I thought they were crazy, but as the camera was rolling, and I am giving this stunt cock some head I completely forgot I had a giant pig nose on my face.

Vouyeur Cams - ON 24/7

2008-10-31T19:35:00.002-04:00

Well its been an interesting week, today I registered for school I am going back to finish up my high school and in the next year or two I will be off to university. In the same week I purchased webcams so that I will be able to broadcast myself uncut, uneditted at home live in my own environment using rude.com live house.

The proccess of setitng up the cams wasn't easy, it gave me alot of mirgrains trying to get things set up. but it's running as much as possible with right now just 2 webcams live on 24 hours 7 days a week, the live voyeur cams are ment for everyone to see what this camgirl does in my daily life. I am sure you guys are wondering and I think it's a great way for you to get to know me a little better.

You can catch me live all the time on rude live house, in rude live house we can have small chit chat but there is no shows being done in the live house. Private webcam shows schedule will be posted when I am taking private 1on1 cam shows.

My lifestyle choice

2008-10-12T21:10:00.002-04:00

Lately I have been having a hard time trying to figure out, what direction I want to take my website in, and I wasn't sure about my future career choices as well I have been thinking of the idea great deal of becoming a midwife sometime in my future, but at the same time that is something that will not be able to happen right away because of many factors that are currently in place right now and other obstacles.

So I had to really sit down with myself and reflect on the past years of what has happened of being a camgirl, and I have noticed the successes happened when I really embraced being a camgirl as a life style and more then a job. Having something as a lifestyle more then a job or career is different in so many ways such as how you handle your income and also the directions you want it to go your 100% in the driver seat.

so since this is my lifestyle I have decided that for me to countinue with I have to really invest some time and money on certain things. one being a web designer course I think I have mentioned in a previous blog and also photography as well.

Somethings that need to be addressed.

2008-10-07T12:51:00.002-04:00

It has come to my attention that alot of you out there are still not getting the message how stupid can you be on this. it's getting ridiculous. If you have joined the website minnieholly.com that is great, but as I have said many times before the content for that website WILL run out and you WILL get bored of what you see on that website.

I also have to address a comment that was made from a reader.

"wow it looks like you have been working alot doing the escorting. i can tell by the bags under your eyes. You dont look as fresh and pretty as you did on minnieholly.com"

Yes I have been working alot and some of my time is spent escorting, at the same time I have been meeting with webmasters, photographers, and other people in the industry about getting my website redone and rebuilt. I do not get bags under my eyes I never had in my life. I only get laugh line. if you were a true fan you would know that. the website you have joined that. FYI that is over 3 years old and also there is a lot of lights and make-up and other camera angels to make things seem nice and smooth.

btw the site is great ive been a member for 3 months now. are you planning on doing more scenes for the site in the meantime.

New website scences have been made for my new website. they take hours and weeks to edit, and compress and finalize the crew that I have to pay to do that is working on it as much as they can.

I read you are supposed to have another website coming out but you posted that so long ago what seems to be the hold up. I would love to see more of your sexy ass taking big cocks.

There is no hold up on the webiste, what you fail to understand is that being a model on the internet, and being able to produce the work that I do takes time, money and a lot of hard work. Your just worried about seenig something to jerk off and you have no appreiciation of the work that is invovled in to create it.

True fan
Jona"

A true fan would be able to understand appreiciate the hard work that I do and not crictize it. your not a true fan if your going to contact me and complain and wine. how you want more material to jerk off too.

I do not want anymore comments or messages of people wondering what is taking so long with my website, or complaining how I should stay with minnieholly.com I have addressed this issue many times of what happened with the website and why I am no longer with them. if your too stupid to understand it by now. then that is your problem. I might sound like a bitch right now but if you have been reading my blogs and following along you would not be wasting my time with this bull shit.

Good things are coming

2008-10-04T23:57:00.002-04:00

Website - Well as you know I am starting over with my website. building two websites actually. a hardcore website called minnie st claire, and rebuilding camgirlminnie.com, some of you still don't understand that having a website comes with a lot of stress and pressure to start, launch and maintain. and also many other factors I have to take into consideration.

I am not sure how long it will take to get both my websites going in full swing, but I am working on it daily. so bare with me.

Buddhism - Also a big thing part of my life right now is that I am a buddhist. I am a member of the Soka Gakkai international. so a lot of my time is in my faith, pratice and the study of my faith. So that is also something that I have to balance out in my life routine as well.

webcam shows - I am slowly getting back into webcam shows, just did 2 hours of cam shows on teasecamz.com. I am weeding out which cam sites are best to work with and which websites I will be dropping off my schedule. I am not trying to add a lot on my plate because it will just end in dissapointment. So for the next few months I will be trying to get more on the camera as well. hope to see you guys in my chat rooms.

Moving forward a lot of changes are happenign but they are for the best, and I know once everything is in smooth running everyone will surely enjoy the work and effort I have been putting in.

valuable lessons

2008-09-30T23:20:00.002-04:00

I have learned some valuable lessons while being an esocrt. One being you can't get to comfortable with escort agencies you have to be prepared to know when the right time to leave them and recognize when they are taking advantage of you or when they actually want to help you make money. Before I got into this business I already came in with my own believes of what this industry should be about but as I got invovled and experienced my own challenges and obstacles I have learned this industry has many different levels and perspectives that no one should judge unless they get.a full understanding about it or experienced it first hand. I have also learned while being an escort you have to expect everything good days, bad days, bad rappor with clients or the agency and other escorts and also you have to be really strong with yourself.

The possibility of finding love being a sex worker

2008-09-09T14:18:00.003-04:00

Every so often this topic or thought will come up, is it possible to date or even marry someone who is a camgirl, porn star, escort, or whatever titled there is out there for some who works in the sex industry.

For some reason a few people would love to dictate that myself will not be able to find love or a man who will want to marry me, it had me thinking who are they to tell me who will decide to spend their rest of their life with me. I have met and seen many people in the industry who are married, dating, or married with children.

Last time I checked I choose what happens in my life, when it happens, and who is in it, but why do people feel the need to tell me who will be in my life.

Too many people feel the need to put down other people for many things but to tell a person you will never find somoene to love you because of what you do for a living is way out of line and they have no business saying anything about another person's possibility of finding love or a long-term relationship.

Swiss Chalet pet peeve

2008-09-08T14:44:00.002-04:00

This blog might seem a bit out there, but hey its my blog I can write whatever I want, Anyway I am not sure what it is but lately I have been more annoyed by the way customer service reps answering thier calls when I need to call them for something i.e ordering take-out swiss chalet.

I use to work for many of theses companies so I still remember my training and what I was evulated on to the point where I feel like going to the call centre office and placing my own damn order or fixing a problem on my service.

Swiss chalet is the biggest one, 90% of the agents who answer the phone are working from home and aren't paid that well. but there is key things they have to do on every call which they are missing.

1 - the opening greeting . "thank you for calling swiss chalet can I have your telephone number pelase?' for some reason each time I call I get some half ass how may I help you then the agent on the phone is lost on what to do next I feel like yelling at her because I knwo she is doing it wrong.

2 - asking if its pick up or delivery . if I have to tell you right away I want an order for delivery then you come around and ask me again that shows you are not being an active listener. and that your not prepared to handle the call.

3 - repeating and confirming I shouldn't have to say my order twice and I shouldn't have to remind you what to do on your screen. if I am taking over the call being a customer on the other side then there is something wrong with you not being able to do your job properly.

4 ending statement at swiss chalet they are suppose to tell you your order will arrive in a time grantee usually 40 to 50 minutes in the lobby, front door or the order is free then after asking if you need utentcils or condiments then close it off to say it's been my pleasure thank you for calling swiss chalet.

You think the agent on the phone did that HELL NO she barely ask me if i want utencils which I do I love getting extra butter it helps with cooking. and I like hearing my time grantee so I can estimate when my food will arrive. I never order food when I am hungry I order before I get hungry so when the food is here I am eating and not complaining to the agent on the phone.

sometimes I think the whole food service industry of the ordering by phone is just going down hill with the way they have their agents on the phone.

Reply to Richard : About Sasha Grey

2008-09-06T08:36:00.003-04:00

Richard: If you read and saw what Sasha had to say about her appearance, then you might change your mind... or maybe not. She was encouraged to waer "toungish" clothes; her make-up was configured to make her look more younger and her comments were edited to make her look ditzy. Now, I don't know, but it looks like the ideological viewpoint that Tyra and the producers wanted their audience to understand about Sasha has worked on you. You failed to see through it. In fact, if you see and read other interviews with Ms. Grey, you'd understand that shes a thoughtful, articulate, sensible young woman who enjoys sex and knows what shes doing.

Ok I am going to make this short, what I was reffering to in my pervious blog about her is the way she is on her youtube pages. I know it's hard coming up wtih topics and making things fun for youtube, and also her reponses, regardless if the Tyra show wants to make her look a different way then she is, her responses that are shown from other interviews around show her personality off a great deal. I was not only reffering to her comment on Tyra I was commenting on the media coverage I have seen.

my previous comments still stand, and I really hope she gets her wake up call soon.

My comments on porn star Sasha Grey

2008-09-06T00:01:00.003-04:00

Wow I was on youtube watching various clips, you know how you can get lost into watching things on youtube, what grabbed my attention and actually made me shake my head in disgust was porn star Sasha Grey, I haven't met her personally as of yet but since I am in the industry who knows one day I might.

From watching the way she has been in her interview such as Tyra Show and Insider, I see she still has a lot to turn learn about the industry and her self and also how to protect herself to countinue in the industry. I know for myself there is still a lot I need to learn and also a lot out there I do not know but I would never think that I can be in this business and assume I will come out being invincible.

The risk of the industry are great, and the longer your in it the more likely you are to be exposed to the risk and dangers in a more long term effect. STDs, post traumatic stress disorder, and long term illness HPV, Cancers, Herpes and whatever new disease out there being created from sexual and bodily fluids being mixed together.

A big part of me is very happy that I try and keep my adult career contained being a web cam girl, and only working in on major website company, and also escorting. I know some might think I could sound like hypercrit right now but from the day I have started having sex and learning about the risk of sex I have always done everything in my power to keep it contained and controlled. I do not think Sasha has really gotten her wake up call as of yet from the business. She reminds of how I was when I first got into the video part of my career being blinded by the fame, and temporary fortune.

I hope she can one day really wake up and see the true colour of the industry and see it for what it is something that eat you alive if your not careful, and if your going to be in you have to make sure you have a sereious goal at hand or you will get lost along the way.

Playboy casting call tommorow

2008-09-04T01:42:00.003-04:00

So sometime earlier today I was surfing the web and came across the casting call for playboy magazine in Toronto. I said to myself why not give it a shot what is the worst that could happen, but around midnight I realized that I do not think I can handle a casting call of being on display and judge by people telling me if I am what they are looking for.

It is a bit nerve recking with this business it has it's moments of joy and success and other times it makes you feel you just want to crawl into a dark whole. I have been working really hard in my business of being an online icon but it seems like I still haven't reached the icon status of being know every where and getting the full recognition.

So if I want to be the "it girl" I will have to really put myself out there and shake my money maker.

Working with Aunt Flow

2008-09-01T19:21:00.002-04:00

I know this blog entry might be a shocker to most reading it but I do not care it's something that needs to be said and expressed. Of course you may know I am a woman. and being a woman I have to deal with my cycle every month or so. I have to deal with cramps, headaches, fucked up eating habits, and hormonal changes and some how continue on with my hectic work schedule.

I usually will shut down business for a week, and try and give myself some serious me time, and catch up on personal stuf like cleaning, friends, family and etc. in a short period of time. but now I can't do that anymore time is money and a week every month is killing business.

So I have been doing research on my alternatives. and there is queit a few out there compared to a few years ago, which I am happy with. one of them being the soft cup also called instead. I am not going to get into too much details about it I just wanted to let people know out there that what I do for a living isn't easy to keep it open 24/7.

Katina B in the metronews what the fuck

2008-08-20T07:47:00.001-04:00

So I am reading the metro news as I do random mornings, I see this Katrina B face in it. I am happy for her she is getting out there and doing it big.

It got me wondering Muary Show emailed me a few days ago sometime last week I think they were talking about having me on the show talking about how everyday people can join the porn industry in a few clicks of the mouse.

I work hard, I bus ass I do everythig by myself but I am getting no media coverage i.e webdreams claiming my life is too boring for television. 20 hours a day I work on my business alone trying to expand and make it better.

but how is that the "white girls" are getting media coverage and I am not, yes that statement was ment to sound a bit racist I really do not care. but I am really tried of seeing them in the media and they are suppose to represent the porn industry well damn it they do not represent me.

I really hope Maury show can make a choice if they will have me on the show. so I can break that annoying misrepresentation in the industry.

http://www.metronews.ca/toronto/canada/article/100242

I am so amazing !

2008-08-19T22:23:00.002-04:00

Today was suppose to be a relaxing day of staying home and not really doing much. I was just planning my day to run a few errands and clean my apartment. but for some reason that didn't go as plan. Around 8 ish the morning I got a phone call from this guy I was at the bell store I was looking to see if I can get an upgrade on my cell phone I feel in love with the Samsung Ace, which I like to call my SamCracky. (pun on the blackberry aka crackberry)

Anyway I got to the store the guy said I do get a 100 credit which was cool, my phone is in well over due of an update, so I am there in the store and this gay guy is in there he was in there because he stepped on his phone and lost his screen and couldn't get his number and etc.

by an hour in the store of chit chatting and flirting and cracking jokes, I ended up going shopping the gay guy found out he is a drag queen in Toronto in the Village. We also went window shopping at the Stag shop in gay ville and I learned ALOT of valuable, important things about how I use my sex toys and how my sex should be more safe then what I was doing in previous experiences. I am glad I went in because from what I learned I was in a high-risk area.

What also made the day interesting and fun is the bell guy in the store, is also cute and I was flirting with him, got his number, and also found out the place is hiring for full-time right now is not a good time for me to get a full-time but hey who knows I could need it in the future, but aslo I got a cute bell guy too hook up my cell phone whenever I need to plus the other guy in the store was cute too so I came out with 2 numbers. hehehe.

What a morning !

2008-08-16T11:10:00.003-04:00

I woke up this morning around 7:00am I know I have been getting up early for some reason I am not sure why maybe it's because things are going good this time around I am enjoying it while I can. I did my usual chant Morning Daimoku, and went to Mcdonalds for breakfast. I ended up bumping into my cousin who I haven't seen since high school. She hasn't changed a bit I hope one day she turns her life around.

So on my way walking to Mickey Ds I started to wonder about peoples fetishes and addictions. I am thinking everyone in the world has one just some more extreme then others, especially with me back in the escorting biz with the fair amount of clients I have seen I have been wondering what makes them call an escort.

One client last night says he sees an escort because he is tried of the bar scene, and dating a girl and he just wants to have a good time without the drama of a girlfriend. which makes sense which is understandable about the whole girlfriend experience

Then there is the group of clients who not all there, a bit slow, and really would have to pay for it because they probably have an uncomfortable time meeting women. Then there is the long time married client they are just looking for vereity happly married, not looking to ruin the marriage but need something to keep them going.

So I have come to the conclusion of another soul searching ephinany my fetishes are various things still not sure what they are as for addictions. Right now we know for sure it's sex, it something I haven't really broke out of since I have started.

From watching Secret Diary of a Call girl I can really relate to some of the topics in the show, i.e there is many kinds of escorts so you can't generalized and I beleive that goes with clients too.

pictures that say 1000s of words

2008-08-13T16:07:00.001-04:00

Full-time job or Full-time business

2008-08-12T23:33:00.003-04:00

I finally got the wake-up call I needed and that was well over due. For a long period of time I have been dancing around having my business full-time again, and now I guess with the internship everything just came crashing down that I can't have both. If I want my business of being a camgirl, porn star and escort to be a great success like it was back in the day of my early years I have to stop runing out at the first sign of panic and get a "real" job.

With Maury show contacting me and with them trying to put together a show of people who have normal lives and have a career in porn it got me thinking about how do I really want my career to be, and today talking wtih my hair dresser I got the same poundering thought again.

So here I am on the verge of making the biggest life change again of focusing 100% of my time on my business with no excuses that I have to get a "real" job or run off to the first job faire I see. This is who I am as a career person a camgirl, porn star and escort and I shall take the era and be that.

Maury Show wants me are you serious?

2008-08-11T14:44:00.003-04:00

So here I am checking my email like I do pretty much everyday, and I get an email from Maury Show. It took me some time to think it was real but from the reply email and the phone number they seem legit.

So I called the number ended up talking with Morgan, she talks really really fast, seems way more exicted that I called back then anything else she said she did some browsing and googling and came access my myspace page which seems pretty cool. I haven't really done much to it but maybe I should since possible media could be looking at it.

It got me thinking a few years ago the company who films the tv series webdreams said my life is too boring for tv, then here out of no where I get contacted to be on Maury, I know I usually only watch it for the DNA testing and here "Your not the father", but it got me thinking if the mainstream media is looking into what is the big secret of being a porn star these days, then maybe I should really venture in writing my memoir, and of course spedning full-time 100% on my online empire.

So it's incredible how things are coming together, I recently decided not to countinue with the internship program I was in, and escorting has been booming termendiously and I have been pushing myself to a painful limit about getting my ass in gear about doing webcam shows and getting my websites together.

I think I will take the next 10 months to really focus on myself and the business, and hopefully by then I will have enough resources to go back to school and finish my OSSD (Ontario Secondary School Diploma) and get myself ready for university.

I am a buddhist ... SGI member

2008-08-10T13:54:00.004-04:00

So I have another confession to make I am a buddhist. I am a proud member of SGI (Soka Gakkai International). www.sgi.org I have been praticing Since May 2008, and I received my membership certificate July 6th 2008, I plan on accepting Gohonzon hopefully by my birthday but I am not rushing for it because to accept Gohozon is a giant and huge life changing commitment.

I thought I would share that I do have a spiritual believe and I still very much proud to be a sex trade worker of being a cam girl, porn star and escort. I know I never talked about my practice or believe system becasue it's something I keep very private to myself, but of course as always there is a group of people out there who have this notion that becuase of what I do for a living that I have no spiritual guidance nor do I have any morals and etc.

YES ! I do very much and I stand by my beleives and spiritual guidance very much. Part of me being so busy and feeling like I am runing on empty is I spend a great part of my day practicing morning and evening Daimuko and Gonyo. Where I will chant facing my home altar Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo.

This pratice of Nirchen Dishonen has allowed me to become more and more confident in myself and my values to the point where I know there is nothing in this world I can not accomplish or achieve and that I am in full control and power of my life and what my life will bring to me.

Feeling a lot of pressure and stress

2008-08-07T01:05:00.003-04:00

Things have been really getting to me lately, so many things I am not even sure where to start. There is the website, shooting for it, planing it, and tring to figure out a schedule of how it will all stay together for the long hall.

Then there is escorting another new business venture, with new rules and experiences to learn. I am enjoying it very much. I am trying to figure out how I can make the most of being in that business with as few mistakes as possible. Tonight I was scheduled to work and I had to cancel my shift I felt awful about it but at the same I know I was not 100% to perform.

Then there is webcam shows, I have been so stressed out I haven't been able to get on and try out my new camera and among other things that goes on with performing a good cam show. Then there is the day job training is almost over. I have a presentation to do tomorrow and a big package I have to fill out to add to my portfolio.

I know I work well under pressure but I think I have added to much, especially with a small issue I am having with my landlord. I know I have been chanting - Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo to have clarity and wisdom to see through all of my obstacles right now.

But I just feel like I am going to snap, so guys go easy on me this little while I got a lot on my plate and I am trying to unload one piece at a time.

All I got was this losey T-shirt

2008-08-04T11:42:00.003-04:00

So last I was booked for a stag party, I never done one before I had no idea what to expect. I got ready looking hot I was wearing a nice sexy purple front low cut dress backless short and tight, had my hair on lol I was wearing a wig (Still shopping around for a new hair stylist) and I had sexy gold heels.

I was at the condo from like 2pm til around 9pm, didn't get any booking during the day. spent a lot of time putting on my make up and taking my make up off because I was just bored out of my mind not getting any bookings. In the same time of putting on make up taking off make up, one of the other agencies girls who lived there was having personal issues I didn't pay her any mind since it wasn't my place.

Around 7 ish I went and got myself Subway Sandwhich. and batteries for my vibrator. Got all dressed up putitng on make up for the final time waiting for the driver to arrive. In that same time of waiting for the driver to arrive the driver and the boss came in to clean up the condo, and pick up the comissions.

But what made that time interesting is the girl who is live-in girl was causing a lot of rucuss. of so many things you know not being on time for the clients and being disrespectful to the agency at least that is what I was observing for the short time I was starting there.

So after all of that I went to my stag it was an interesting experience nothing like I pictured in my head and at the end of it all I didn't make the money I was expecting and I left there very disappointed and feeling very much ripped off not by the agency but by the people at the stag party.

Looking out for number one myself

2008-08-03T03:39:00.003-04:00

So another night of being an escort, and I finally figured out what part of the job I enjoy so much. it pretty much boils down to 2 things major things I love money and I love sex. I know this might be a shocker to some people out there, but I feel the need to be completely honest with myself more then any thing and with the way works money controls everything.

Things in my life right now are finally going really good and I am doing everything in my power to make it that way. By making sure I have the very best in my life. In this life time I plan on changing a lot of things so in the future I will come back with great knowledge and wisdom to share with the world, but I guess I am already doing that.

So with my chosen career as this moment it is set up in place so that in the next 5 years or less I will have everything I need to presure bigger dreams.

Household planning

2008-08-01T15:34:00.003-04:00

So the last 6 months or so probably longer, I have been shopping around for items to furnish and decorate my apartment. I have been living in my apartment for about a year, and I haven't really got into the whole home decor thing. I never did it and putting posters of hot teen hotties back in the day does not really count for home decor.

So far things have been placed on layway I am not going into that buy now, pay later trap again I have learned my lessons with a few items I have that I am over paying for right now. I am doing it the old fashion way of putting money away in savings and on layaway so that when when I finally make that purchase I know I own the item and I do not have to worry about a bill appearing in my mail box in the next month.

So I have picked out my sofa set, 3 seat, and love seat, they look really nice. I am not sure when they will be arriving but they will be coming in soon. and today I put layaway down on some paintings that really spoke to me in a spirtual way. I also put money down on my altar so I can practice buddhism, and there was a layaway item that I put money down on that some of the items I am not really interested in so I think I will have to cancel that order.

What I have learned about all this shopping aorund for home funishings and decor you really have to think about what can you live with for a long period of time it's not something you can do on the spur of the moment as I have learned wiht some of the items I am in the process of donating to charity.

Day 2 as an escort still not sure what to make of it.

2008-08-01T01:33:00.002-04:00

Well I am home its around 1:30am and I am not really sure what to make of my night, it's the second day I am back into the escorting world. I still got some mixed feelings about it. I really enjoy the work but I can't figure out if its a natural enjoyment or some internal drug high enjoyment.

I figure this time around since I am really going deep into being a sex trade worker to really get my goals in order that I will also reach out for some more support i.e there is a lot of sex trade worker programs out there I might drop in to one tommorow.

Tonight was definitely a strange night, Short version of it was I had 3 appointments, and at the end of the night some money was missing from my cut, I swear the girl they have living in the condo is stealing from me. I do not think this is the first time she has done it I think just now she is getting sloppy.

As for everything going on it's going pretty well. I have been really plugging away making sure I get myself a serious fresh start and make up for some lost time in the 5 years I have been in every aspect of this business.

Tommorow well today is suppose to be great 9 to 5 job, then webcam shows, and some appointments as being an escort, and planning for my websites that are in progress and moving great and serious budget planning for personal and business.

Monday, July 21, 2008

2008-07-30T08:51:00.000-04:00

So it's around 6:45 PM here I am in my bed writing up on the events of my day of the shoots, Right now I am waiting for Stunt cock number 3 to arrive, stunt cock 2 just left finally, and stunt cock 1 was sometime before lunch. So lets rewind from the begining , so I think it was around 1pm ish that stunt cock number 1 appeared. I was getting ready putting on hair and make-up and picking out my cute outfit. He seemed ok looking cute shaved hair, nice mushstash, and a slim body .... the cock ehhhh wasn't so great but it did get the job done.

For being out the video porn loop for a while I am out of practiced, I was nervous, and always wondering what I look like you know where my face is, how I look on the camera, and do I sound ok. The first guy came in my eye, I hate getting come in my eye it takes forever for it to come out, I had to really flush my eye out with water. Visine does not do shit to take out cum out your eye it actually makes it worst.

The third guy, ok size cock, bald, loves to eat pussy and I swear his lower region was like a damn jungle the fucker only shaved part of his balls and left all this damn pubic hair, plus he was a big talker , not just in the scene of scene too, the first guy was shy way too shy made me feel kinda of bored.

Now here I am waiting to see how the third guy will perform .... I hope it goes well ... So far midway it was going pretty well, a little on the quiet side but he has a cute face to make up for it. kinda looks like a surfer version of Fez from that 70s show. So far it looks like the third guy is the best out of the ones who have shown up so far.

This week has been pretty interesting in the way it's all coming together for my website.

Monday, July 21, 2008

2008-07-30T08:50:00.002-04:00

So it's minute to 11:00 pm and my day is complete I did 4 scences today 4 different guys, and ONE only really made the cut. Guy number 4 I was amazed with him the whole entire time.

I am keeping this short becuase I am really tired and I still got the rest of the week ahead of me, but I wanted to let everyone know things are going great. for a successful day of shooting me fucking and sucking.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

2008-07-30T08:50:00.001-04:00

Well it's day two in montreal shooting content for the website Minnie St Claire, so far things are going really great, I woke up this morning in a lot of pain , but that is because I was working really hard yesterday.

Today I am told seems to be an easy day a possible of 2 stunt cocks coming in today and shooting some photos, and solo videos. So who knows I might end up spending the day just chilling and taking some pics. Which will be nice since I didn't get a good sleep last night I kept tossing nad turning becuase my back was hurting me.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

2008-07-30T08:48:00.000-04:00

So it's the end of Day three, and let me tell you my body is achy, I had some experience with my first open casting. and it was really good and bad all in one.

Right now my face has been through so much with getting cummed on, taking off my make up, reapplying make up, and basically each day was a constant put on and take off. Now as for my body parts they are really taking a beaten. my pussy is soo raw I am superized it is able to function properly and I am so happy I am only doing one anal scene for the week, cause my ass is soo tender sometimes I can't even shower properly.

I thought I give everyone a heads up of what it's like of being an internet porn star. mind you I love job with everything passionate fiber of my being but I really had no idea how much work was invovled until I did my first open casting.

There will be more open casting calls in the future because I am looking for a few good men to work with for my site. so this might be the only chance a guy might have a shot of his dream of being a porn star.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

2008-07-30T08:47:00.000-04:00

So today was an early day, I got up my usual time, but I was told I had an 10:00 am shoot, but the fucker never showed up, and now it's around 4:00 pm and even the damn 4:00 is not even here.

So far today we were suppose to have 4 guys and only 2 showed up, the first one was a repeat from a previous 2 days, he did really well. then today it was a new guy, he did extremely well I really enjoyed myself. No porn acting for me I have no clue how to do that.

So looks like out of about 9 guys who have showed up for the casting couch only 3 have been able to do what it takes to be a proper stunt cock possible male porn star.

Today is day 4 the week is winding down, and my throat is still on fire, and my damn eyes are burning me from the new guy today he came everywhere it was awsome. and to have an even nicer bonus he was solid rock hard before we got to the blow job part.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

2008-07-30T08:46:00.000-04:00

So I came in today in the evening to Toronto, from a long week of shooting for my casting couch, and getting ready to have 2 websites on the go. I worked my ass off, and I learned a lot and I can't wait til I can rest up and do it all over again.

The things I learned is that, to make sure I have a veriety of lube, and condoms for the casting couch, also have a better system of getting ready for my scenes from choosing outfits, putting on make-up, hair styles, and make it very clear to the men arriving who actually show up, that I am not their girlfriend, this is strictly sex for the scene to make sure I have a good video for my website, and once it's done and there is cum on my face, there is no more physchial contact unless its a hug or hand-shake as they are leaving out the door to go home or on their way out.

That was like my biggest pet peeve, the final guy at the end of the shooting I think guy 13 or 14 I really didn't keep track of the numbers of guys on the casting couch, couldn't perform, couldn't keep hard, and once we decided to call it a night, he decided to try and feel me up, I told him that was not proffesional at all and I walked away from him but in that same moment made me wonder a few things one the guys on the casting couch even the cute ones I would never really talk to them if I saw them on the street and also the guys who didn't perform well I also would not talk to them if I saw them on the street, and I realized even more with the casting couch that I really do have a personality of being a porn star.

As my sites progress minniestclaire.com and camgirlminnie.com there will be more insightful blogs of what it like being a porn star. a lot of things will not be surgar coated. but you will get the inside skinny of what goes on when the camera is rolling and even not rolling.

First Night as a call girl

2008-07-30T08:39:00.001-04:00

I wrote this blog last night, when I had some down time in between calls. now in the morning as I reflect and post this blog I wrote, I am understanding that being a sex trade worker seems to be my nature as of this point in my life and I am more and more accepting it.

From time to time I will post my experiences of when I am transforming into being an escort and how each day of that goes. I thought about making seperate blog for it but that is just too much hassle.

Also While I was in montreal I made another blog for my website minnie st claire I also seeing that was just a waste of internet space so I will be deleting that blog and moving those entries over.

So everything of my camgirl, porn star, escort life will all be in one place and it will give you a 3 perspectives of what it's like being me in this every growing and serious money making industry of sex.

I got a new camera

2008-07-29T19:27:00.002-04:00

So I think it was Monday, I went shopping for my new camera, what drew me to that point well it was a few things, main reason and important reason is I need a serious upgrade and a reward for my hard work of being in Montreal, and taking in 13 stunt cocks back-to-back.

Montreal was great I can't wait til I go again, in the mean time I have to keep myself busy with my camera, of doing webcam shows, plus keeping my 9 to 5 part-time job, and also explore the industry of being an escort.

I am really enjoying my life right now and there is certain parts of it I would like to share, and I will try and make them as create as I can. by posting blog, video blogs, and just showing my ture self.

I have to confess I am a call girl

2008-07-29T17:07:00.002-04:00

I wasn't sure if I was going to post about this, but I have come to the epiphany after my week of doing an open casting call in Montreal, that I should be comfortable talking about it. So here goes, I know once it's out I can't really take it back but I will give it a shot anyway since I am going on this whole new path of being completely honest with myself.

So here goes, about 2 years ago I went into the business of escorting, if your not sure what escorting is, well here is a quick hint, protitution, hooker, call girl. Well there I gave you 3 hints of what it is, and frankly just like the tv show secret diary of a call girl those are really just antics, and they do not change who I am or the type of person I am.

I guess I am finally getting completely comfortable in my own skin. So 2 years ago when I got into the business of escorting I really thought I was going crazy my whole world was crashing down on me overweming debt and feeling of being out of control of my financial life.

I was working a regular at the time, I always work a regular job, but at the end of the day the regular bump and grind 9 to 5 job was just barely cutting it. but it was not giving me full satisfaction that I was able to handle all my financial needs, wants and dreams.

I had to do something so here I was on the internet sufring escort agencies. I have met with a lot of them some good, bad and bareable. then I final picked an agency to start with, well pretty much all the agencies want you to start. I was first in an incall agency, where the clients would visit me, and the first few months were spectacular money wise of course, and eventually my self-esteem boosted, then I had issues with the agency I had to switch then I went into a down whirl spiral.

Enough of that recap here I am 2 years later, a little older, a lot of self aware, and jumping back into the industry again, from that giant 2 year break I took of self discovering and serious goal setting I have discovered if I want my dreams to come true I need to make big actions to make them happen.

Of course you all know that I am a camgirl, now porn star, and part-time escort. Why because my dreams will only happen if I make them happen and working 9 to 5 for $1,400 a month is not going to get my dreams.

Back to epiphany, with the open casting call, each day was an adventure an exciting, mind blowing rushing experience, that I really enjoyed, and the only thing closet to that high, is escorting, Each scence had me breaking out of my creative skin and skills, of being able to transform into a wonderful exciting, desireable sex symbol, plus fullfil the male fantasy at the same time.

A lot of the guys at the open casting call never been with a black girl that really truned me on knowing that I have to make sure I give them an experience of a life time, so they journey out finding another black girl or reliving the experience in thier head over and over again.

Then there were guys who had little fantasy qwerks one of them me wearing stockings, I was like ok cool. how I can make that come alive, I had white stockings and I think a black thong, he loved it he spent more time drolling over my stockings to where it made the sex even more enjoyable. the spark on his face just really got me going.

With all those light bulb experiences going off in a weeek, now I have the opportunity to make that happen on a part-time regular basis. Until I have graduated from university at that point a new life experience will happen.

If your reading this and wondering how you can enjoy me as an escort. the answer is I will not tell you what agency I am with or any info of to make an appointment with me, I only have my bookings set up from the agency and if you happen to find what agency that has me on their schedule and you make an appointment I will be more then happy to service you when that time comes.

What I learned from having a cassting couch.

2008-07-27T00:01:00.002-04:00

Enjoying Montreal

2008-07-23T11:14:00.004-04:00

So I am in Montreal it's day three, I have been really enjoying working on my websites camgirlminnie.com and my exciting new hardcore action website Minnie St Claire, last night I got to meet XXX Mina. She is a very cool girl, she was shooting some pics for her website too her and her hubby came over.

I got to do about 4 photos sets that will be on my website, which should be exciting. and also I shot a nice solo anal scene that will be on the website too. So as for the procccess of starting over fresh and in full control I would say things are going really great.

In a few months things will be moving even great and just need to figure out how I can take photos at home. so that way I can have more updates on the website.

In Montreal .. Day ONE

2008-07-21T09:29:00.003-04:00

Well it's around 9:30am and I am in montreal, enjoying my new temp home. it's a small condo. that is roughly the same size as my apartment in Toronto. Arriving in Montreal was a treat I spent about an hour or so just waiting for my suit case to arrive. I swear the airport is faster.

Of course I got new arrival in a new city McDonalds, and groceries. What was a real treat was the shower. It was a shower I wasn't use to or even seen before, I pretty much soaked the whole bathroom because I couldn't figure out how it worked, then once I got the hang off it I pretty much didn't want to get out of it. It was just soo wonderful.

The day will be filled of photo shoots, and videos and who knows what else is in store for the day.

Leaving on a Jet Train ...

2008-07-20T09:12:00.003-04:00

Well it's about 9:00 AM and I am packed and all ready to go to the train station to have a 6 hour ride to Montreal. I am pretty excited ... suprisely all the important people in my life saw me before my big trip or called me.

I had to over come the biggest obstacle of all my hair. OMG ! the damn bitch hair dresser didn't do a good job and I am ripped off by $120.00 bucks. It's bad enough my regular hair stylist up and left with no explanation but now I have to reinvest time and money finding a new hair stylist. I will worry about finding a new stylist when I come back.

Right now I am need to get ready for a big week of shooting new photos, videos and blogs for my new websites ... Thanks for all the emails I will reply to them once I know exactly when my new sites are LIVE ! . It's not easy being an internet star but I do love the job and challenges that come with it.

So next time I will be writing its mid point of my traveling because I was told that the train has internet access :) so that will make my blog entry even more interesting.

Bad Weave I am soo pissed

2008-07-19T21:44:00.003-04:00

So here I am packing for my trip, going to be away in Montreal for a week shooting for my new websites. I spent about a month running around rushing getting things ready for my trip and I am still unprepared to go.

The biggest thing about going anyway whether its on a business trip or vacation. it's all about the hair and right now I am pissed off with a bad weave. my hair stylist up and left wtih no explanation. and I am very pissed about it. Now I am back at square one looking for a stylie which means money being invested to see how good do they claim to be, and 90% of them really can't do hair properly. Make mes wonder whast really goes on in the hair schools.

I am still going on my trip I am trying to decide what essentials I need to bring with me. and what home comfort items I can bring without brining the kitchen sink. now when I come back I have to be on the search of finding a new stylist this is just ridiculous. What the hell is wrong with black business they never really value the business or customers.

Well it's official ... Big shoot coming up this Sunday

2008-07-16T20:47:00.002-04:00

Well again I have been runing around keeping up with many different things going on in my life, and I still manage to make sure to put in a good effort to plan a business trip out to Montreal to get my new websites on the go. YES ! the website will come out, when I am not sure yet, sincce it's takes time and money to put together and produced, but it will happen. I know I have been getting emails from you guys about my website and when it will come out but you have to be patient.

So for a full week I will be in Montreal getting my website on a serious start, of shooting content of new photos and videos, and also webcam shows as well and new youtube vblogs. I have been looking forward to this for a very long time and some big obstacles have come in the way but I have been pushing through them to make sure my dream of my websites will happen. So this weekend I will be packing, getting ready for my train ride, and planning what movies I will be watching in my travels, and also thinking of creative things to have in my shoots.

This is the begining of a fresh start for everyone. New websites and great things are coming.

Been Extremely busy

2008-07-08T01:31:00.003-04:00

I have been extremely busy the last few weeks maybe longer I am no counting the time. Been working out some plans to get my new websites up and running in the next 3 to 6 months. Also been taking in some spiritual events I am a praticing Buddhist of SGI (Soka Gakkai International) I just recently received my SGI membership certificate that I have been working really hard for the last few months.

Yes ! it is possible to be working in adult from any aspect of being a porn star, web model, phone sex operator or even an escort and still have a very strong religious believe. We are not here in this world to be judge we are hear to either live our lives or live our lives and learn value lessons to take to the next life. Enough of that religion talk. Anyway as I was saying I have been really busy getting things in order and on a different successful business track. for my webcam shows, website, phone sex via niteflirt, and other business ventures.

Right now in the works is meet getting out to Montreal for a photo shoot/video shoot in the next couple of weeks . Yes there will be video blogs and photos coming along with that trip. I promise to make sure I document as much as possible.

Also I am going to give myself a go of being a Call Girl. Still undecided about that because it's a whole different business world for me but I thought I give you guys a heads up that I am branching out to that business venture. the details of it will not be disscussed here.

MinnieHolly.com members WARNING !
Guys if you joined minnieholly.com anytime from March 2008 or anytime in the future you might end up being some what dissapointed to know they only have a limited amount of content of me for that website plus I am not working with them and there is no way in hell am I going back which I have mentioned in previous blogs, but for some reason there is some slow guys out there who are not getting it.

Where do I see myself in the next 5 or 10 years

2008-06-27T13:59:00.002-04:00

Alright so lately, I have been thinking and doing some soul searching of wondering where I would like my life to be in the next 5 to 10 years. Let me tell you that question was not easy to answer becasue of so many outside opinions. It took some time and a lot of talking with friends, family, and people in the business and I believe I have found the concrete answer I am looking for.

Being a webcam girl is really a great stepping stone job, for some it can be a long term career but then again that depends on your definition of what long-term is, some decided to go full force in to the porn industry which can lead to a path of being in the same place all the time with no real advancement. Others have been able to make a life-time empire that will last them well into retirement or when they have grand children, those are the very special and serious one of the business which gives us people who are just looking for something to keep our hands busy a great outlet.

I know it amazing of how many possibilities there is from this industry lucrative business, but for me I finally see my path in it and where it suppose to lead me to the next level in my life. Which is using this great resource to prepare myself for furture of going to university and having a career as a midwife. I am not the type of girl who is interested in flipping burgers and asking if you will like fries with that. I have done the contact centre/call centre thing for a while and even discovered that business in it can also be a source of income I create for myself by being an independent contractor, so I figure since I admire and value my independence a great deal why not use every income generating resource out there to be independent in my own path.

LOL ... are you wondering what the hell am I talking about or have you got an understanding of what I am doing. the sort version webcam shows, phone calls on niteflirt, my two websites will be the stepping stone income to make sure I arrive and past the stages of university and a career of being a midwife.

I will be getting breast implants in the next 1 to 2 years

2008-06-22T15:28:00.005-04:00

Recently, I have finally made the decision that I want to have my breast done and go through with breast augmentation surgery. Probably to some people reading this it might seem to be a shocker hearing this news, but it’s not new news. Over the years on and off I have been talking about getting breast implants, and what has discouraged me in the past is no longer an obstacle in my way, because I have a lot of inner searching and research about the procedure, visiting plastic surgeons, and also talking with female and even males I know who have went through breast augmentation surgery and I found the answer the breast augmentation is right for me.

I am also listed on the website myfreeimplants.com in hopes that website help me reach my goal of what I need for my surgery and recovery, also of course I will be using my website to raise the money I need for it, and in approximately 1 to 2 years I will be having the surgery. No need to worry guys those of you who enjoy my breast as they are now will receive many photos and videos on my website, webcam shows, and eventually they will be achieved after my surgery is done so I will make sure I enjoy the before and after process.

Also for the people wondering why I want to go through getting breast augmentation surgery I have some questions below. Also I want everyone out there to know who have the stigma or stereotype of getting breast implants means you will have fake breast that is NOT TRUE and a very ignorant statement to say, the breast are very much real in every sense of the word it just has enhancement for the person to have the desire shape and size they want. It’s adding extra support to the body and to the mental and emotional state of the person who owns and carries the breast. So If there is any comments regarding or discouraging me from getting implants they will be deleted immediately.

This decision I have made is neither for debate nor for anyone to convince my otherwise.

How long have you wanted surgery?
Well from the moment my breast started to developed and reach a point where they stop growing, I have always wanted them to be bigger, and more full. When I was 18 years old maybe a little younger I started asking questions about what If I got implants. My mother first right away took me to the doctor and he asked me all these questions of why I believe I need them and etc. and after that time he went to my mother and said to her that I should get them, but the fear of surgery discouraged me a little so I ignored my wish of wanting to have them. But now as I get older I see the desire to get implants more possible from my own efforts, or donations.

Have you picked a surgeon yet?
I have seen about 2 surgeons so far, in my research of deciding on getting implants. I plan on seeing more of them, before I make my final choice. My friend told me about her surgeon who preformed her augmentation and I believe her results are spectacular. So he will be one of the surgeons I will see and I am hoping I will be able to choose him to be my surgeon. His website is www.yorkvillecosmeticsurgery.com on his website I believe he has great before and after pictures of his patients that have done the surgery. Which makes me feel a little it more confident of choosing him I still have to make an appointment and meet with him and really get the facts, I saw my family doctor and I explained to her what my plans are and she told me to go for it, just to keep in mind that breast feeding my future kids might no be a possibility.

How big are you planning to go?
Currently I am a 34 C, and I am very out of balanced my right side is extremely smaller then my left, I know we are not suppose to be completely even in our body shapes but this unbalance is very unsettling to me and I plan going to large C or small D.

What’s the first piece of lingerie you plan to purchase when you get your new breasts?
I plan on shopping in many different stores once I am fully recovered and healed form surgery. I believe getting implants will complete exactly how I feel about myself on the inside so it will be manifest on the outside. I am looking forward to shopping and buy new clothes for my personal life and work life.

Help pay for a girls boob job! Invest in my breasts!

Minnie in the kitchen

2008-06-09T08:20:00.001-04:00

So I decided to tackle my kitchen and really get in there and make something.

YES ! Coming SOON !!!

2008-06-03T11:07:00.004-04:00

Well this is a fucking fabulous moment, as you can see there is things moving and groving along wtih my website(s) first thing in order was making a coming soon page. Which was well over due. The image I put in this blog is a cut sample of what my web designer has pulled together in 48 hours. It's fucking amazing. I know you guys will love it. it's just makes me soo excited looking at it and I am a girl but then again only me knows how to turn me on in that way where I was jumping up and screaming when I saw it and being the hot cam girl that I am I am invovling everyone into this wonderful changing process of taking full control and ownership of my destinsy of being an internet model icon.

As more new excitings things unfold I will be sure to let you guys know about it, but for now you will be asured to know that things are moving and the wheels are in motion and the weeks and months to come you won't even remember what journey I have been through to get to a fabous beautfiul point. If you haven't noticed from now and forever as long as I am on the internet my name is Minnie St Claire.

So I quit my full-time job

2008-06-03T01:30:00.002-04:00

So it's official I quit my job, and I am no longer in the bump and grind of fiting in with normal soceity or trying to find a job with secruity and benefits and all that middle class brain wash crap. If you work one of those jobs and your truely happy in it I applaused you, but for me this time in my life with how hectic my life is there is no way I can fit in a job that sucks away my soul day by day what kind of life is that.

So with the finally weight of my mind and my shoulder, I can finally focus on getting back to my website and moving forward with the new changes that on the horizon. I am in no rush at all this time around of me re-entering the online porn will be approaching with a completely different view then I had before, I will do my best to stick with a permenant schedule of doing webcam shows on 3 major sites, and also my youtube blogs ... I really miss being on youtube I will also add in blogtv as well.

and most importantly I will making time for myself which the first time I around I did neglect big time to do, this time around will be different in many ways and of course with old habits hard to break some of them will still be in the new.

I just wanted to let everyone know that things are still moving foward as they should and great things are in the progress of coming along. and no need to worry about me working for the man ... I will be working for myself.

Thanks for the support

2008-05-24T10:12:00.001-04:00

"Wow that guy sounds like an asshole. You will always have haters and people who are your real fans. That guy must be mad cause your not on minnieholly.com. thats ok i will wait for you my dear!! You mentioned to send you cash if we cant wait what exactly is that for? is it for you to just get by to pay your bills or is it to fund your new website? I would love to see you buy back your minnieholly.com i will help contribute to the fund!!! i'm sure lots of other people would too. It kinda stinks to wait but i guess good things come to those who wait. So how much money are we talking?"

"You mentioned to send you cash if we can't wait what exactly is that for?

The money will be used for the FULL funding of my website, and expenses that come with having a website. So I can give you a break down of all the expenses that come with me being online. Then of course you have to add in my personal expenses and etc. but since I have mentioned many times before I do have a 44 hour a week full-time job some of my expenses are cut down from being at that job and from being at that job that sometimes cuts down my time I spend online on the cam for you guys to enjoy.

expenses of being a webcam girl aka porn star
web designer $2,000.00 one time fee
web hosting $1,000 a month
photographer $500 to $1,000 per shoot
camera man $500 to $1,000 per shoot about 3 to 4 hours of
advertising $1,500 a month
make up artist $1,200 per application
wardrobe $1,000
travel & hotel and food on the road $5,000

Then my personal expenses and personal life around $4,000 a month. So basically for me to keep myself online cost me around $10,000 a month or so. A lot of guys have no idea how much time and money is spent on building a website or even the energy

is it for you to just get by to pay your bills or is it to fund your new website?

All my expenses that are made from being online go 90% into getting me staying online, some months are extremely harder then others most of them time I never make a profit. I am lucky if some months I break even, having a profit would be nice maybe I could actually have my dream vacation. but obviously with what I make from what is being spent on webcam shows, memberships, and phone sex calls on niteflirt and the fees each website takes and the fees the billing processor takes at the end of it all I really get a small cut to barely get me back on the next to do it all over again. So why else would I do it it's has to be for the pure love of it because the money isn't there as it should.

my new website budget is estimated at around 20,000 to start because I am actually partnering with a new company that actually treats me with respect, dignity and actually take my ideas and goals into consideration and also lets me have the freedom of keeping and enjoying my day job.

my bills and debts will always be there not much I can do about those I have already seeked out financial counseling services and financial advisor's to figure out the best plan to handle my lifestyle of being a webcam girl, and because I love what I do I haven't packed it all up and basically claim bankruptcy I still have hope everything will work out and fulfill my dreams it will definitely take longer then it suppose to be because of how things have turned out with minnieholly.com but now I do not have to worry about feeling isolated or feeling mistreated and direspected and unappreciated and under valued.

I would love to see you buy back your minnieholly.com i will help contribute to the fund!!So how much money are we talking?

When I finally got away from the horrible nightmare of the contract that came with minnieholly.com they were suggesting that I could buy out the website and everything that came with it for $70,000 ! YES ! $70,000k if I had that I would not even be online.

I hope that gives everyone a glimse of what goes on in the financial aspects of being a cam girl. What I do is not easy I work long hours of days and nights, sometimes very little time for family or friends, and also I even put my education on hold because of finances are not as easy as they seem. I am not trying to get into the personal details but you do have to remember what I do on here is strictly to get buy to maybe be able to click on my internet and be able to post a new webcam show, blog or youtube clip. Even if some areas have free wireless internet access those are never reliable and always cut out at any under expected time.

I really hope what is to come will ease some of the stress I am having but if it does I would have to predict that my online pressence will be on for about 2 more years 5 if I get things sorted for my univerity and If things pick up while I am university I can really enjoy my online career even more. Since university is $40,000 per year.

my most passionate blog EVER !

2008-05-20T03:30:00.011-04:00

This comment was rejected and when I am done my full-time job that I work 40 hours a week I will response to it. You guys have been warned from now my response to this rejected post will not be pleasant and some of you will see a side of me you have never seen before. Some of you might even hate me after I reply to this comment. The comment below will be the only one I response to because I have to make many valuable points to this nasty jerk off. Comments like this is a great example of one of my giant pet peeves towards many people who has issued with people in the online porn industry or the porn industry in general or even the sex industry as a whole. Guys who make comments like this shouldn’t even bother access a computer they really have no important or value to say but the point is I want to address the things he said.

“You know what im getting sick and tired of reading your blog. Blah Blah Blah my life is soo crazy and im so busy. You been saying this for months now ever since you quit your minnie holly site. Ive been a member with minnieholly.com for a month and I have come to find out you have left and ventured off to do your own thing was the stupidest mistake you ever could have made.”

The question should be are you angry that I am no longer apart of minnieholly.com or you have issues with me having a life away from the camera that is my own personal life. Guess what hun, I am more then just being on the camera I have other things that I do with my life to make sure I have a balanced and fulfilled one of them being busy to take care of my personal needs that do not involved me on camera doing webcam shows, or photos shoots or scenes of me having sex. I also work a full-time job, I have family and friends, I attend my Buddhist temple, and monthly meetings, plus I make sure I put in time for myself not every moment of my life will be on the camera and thank god for that. I need something to keep to myself.

So you are a member of minnieholly.com that is great. If you were truly an admire of my work you would be disappointed that I am no longer with that website or company who owns the images that are on that website you would be happy to know that I am venturing out to do my own thing but instead you decided to be a hater. If you feel the need to hate on me because you think you lost your money you didn’t really lose it you got what you paid for when you joined that just it will come to a certain point if it hasn’t already that the website will not be updated and will not have weekly cam shows on it because I will be doing them else where.

How is it a mistake for me to venture out on my own and take full ownership and control of my image, name and internet presence and not be tied down to a company who does not care about me, and is abusive and controlling when I can take control of what I want and what I want the public internet viewers to see I would really like you to explain that one.

“Not only do you have to start from square one, you have also disappointed your fans and members of that site. you mention all this advice about being a camgirl such as camgirl tip#1 be available and visible . you cant even follow your own advice. Your never online!!!! When will you be putting up your site I want to see the real deal in action enough of this blogging bullshit GET YOUR SITE ONLINE.”

Starting from square one is actually a great thing, I get to step back, reflect and plan what I want to do for the future, and many of you got plenty of warning that I am not a part of the minnieholly website. If you decided to ignore that warning that is your own fault. My true fans and loyal fans understand the reasons of why I am no longer with that site, and some of you have emailed me with asking me permission to join that website while you wait for me to rebuild my TWO new websites.

As for me blogging that is how you get to see my personality, if your looking for a girl with no personality and takes the time to share you her thoughts, opinions, obstacles and victories, then you are definitely not interested in me or what I have to come for the future. Getting a website online is not that easy, have you tired to make a successful website I am sure you haven’t because if you did you would understand how much work is involved in making a website and putting one together. It’s more then just learning some web design codes like html and putting up pictures. The new generations of websites now have to be very interactive which is called the 2.0 version. Which is exactly what I am doing which is a big part of being available of my camgirl tip #1.

You waiting for the real deal in action it is in action me posting on my blogs is me in action I take the time to come online and create a blog share what is going with me. FYI its called the life of camgirl Minnie. If you can’t understand that my life that is offline from the computer and the camera does involves me being busy and tied up with issues and events that take away from the time I should be on the camera doing webcam shows then you really just a giant jerk off idiot.

“Crawl back to minnieholly.com and get back to work!! then you will have earned my respect as a fan and dedicated member. But now that i think of it you will probley end up deleting this post cause all you do is place positive posts in your blog to paint a pretty picture. well if you were a true webcam girl then you would respond to this blog post and let the real minnie holly show. I just think your smoke and mirrors and you dont have the guts to make it. Im waiting for your response …”

Crawl back to a website and company that treats me like I am sub-human and that I am object and not a human being because all they care about is them making their own money and not considering or caring who they hurt or exploit in the process. ARE you smoking something you need to stop that. I do not need your respect there is nothing to earn because from the way you have left your comment on my blog you will never get my respect and you have lost the privaliage or write to even contact me again. If you are really and truly a dedicated fan or member you will actually understand the work and effort I put in having a website and also the time and energy I put in of being online for over 5 years and still want to be online.

Yes I only place positive things on my website, blog and everything I decide to post oonline because why have something negative when it only attracts more negative things didn’t you watch or read the book The Secret or any books on the law of attraction I think you need to go your local library and get some and educate yourself on why I have things in a positive manner when I am on the camera.

I am a ture cam girl like no other, but I am a also a human female being. With a life of my own that I will live how I choose and to my full potential and desires that I will fulfil. If you really thought I was smoke and mirrors you would not even be asking me for a reply back you would not be challenge me to say anything back to you, because if you thought I was you would not care if anything new came up.

I have plenty of guts and I am very brave to put my real face, body, and mind out there for the internet public to see. If your not able to see that again that is your own problem and on your head.

Now this message is over, there will be no more comments or post of my blog in the future if you can not say anything nice to me about what I do in my blog you will no longer be able to post comments on it I leave the option available for people to response to my blog for them to keep the interactive flow going but it can easily be taken away.

For those who understand why I am not on minnieholly and support my dission to venture out on my own thank you for your support. For those are who in the same idiot category as this fool who posted on my blog yesterday you know what FUCK YOU !

I plan on doing great things with my websites, and I plan on staying online as long as possible but for that to happen you will need patients and you will have to wait if you can not wait the only thing for you to do is to send me cash if you want to send me cash you can send me an email and I can give you the info to send me cash Western Union or any other certified funds like a bank draft or money orders.

camgirl tip #3 - Interact, Interact, Interact!

2008-05-19T19:56:00.002-04:00

Let your viewers know you are real, live and ready, and that they know what they are seeing is REALLY LIVE, and not a pre-recorded video. Let them know you are ready to talk with them, and that you are ready to show off your body by moving around and being fun and flirty and creative.

Smile ... Smile ... This is the most important thing for cam girls your smile goes a very long way and also eye contact. I know it can be hard to do eye contact through the computer but it goes a long way in the way you position your camera and computer together to make it look like when you type your are looking directly at them this little emphasis in effort of making a good show actually makes them feel you are looking directly at them and in the end result makes them feel special.

Pay attention to what they say even if you have heard it 1000 times before them make it seem like your hearing their question or request for the very first time. Remember to make them feel special and appriaciated that is how it becomes your bread and butter.

Changes ... Changes

2008-05-17T15:42:00.002-04:00

I know I haven't been on here as much as I should and the web cam schedule I have been really bad at getting it started, but that is because of long of things off camera have been happening that I still need to sort things out.

If you told me about 5 months ago that I would be so busy that I would not know what to do with my self I would think your crazy. but that is what is happening, I am really in a different place then I was 5 months ago, and I am really trying to focus on the most important person in the world myself.

I know it might seem a bit selfish but the way I see if you can not take care of yourself, your no good to take care of anyone else. So with that new focus of being on a path to support and enjoy my new life. I am really just focusing on getting my websites back up and running smoothly. for camgirlminnie.com and a new one that is on the horizon.

camgirl tip #2 Setting the Scene

2008-05-15T11:54:00.001-04:00

The environment you are in, what you wear and the props you use play an integral role defining the atmosphere of your streaming video chat. When it comes to setting the scene, you should give things some thought. Do you want your room to appear warm and comforting? Your room should be a closed, quiet spot, where you can chat without disruption from people, telephone calls, television sets, etc. Use props and wear something different or make changes to your environment from time-to-time. Most importantly - make sure your Guests can see you, your room and your props, otherwise it's all for naught.

This does not have to be expensive, but something it can be a bit overwhelming to think of what can I do to make my look stand out and be different from everyone else, view other sites that offer free chat teasers like PrivateCamz and Cams they offer free teaser chat visiting various rooms of other webcam models to get an idea of how they set up their room you will quickly notice what you do not like and like from each girls room, and even notice some of their bad habits.

camgirl tip #1 Be Available and Visible

2008-05-15T11:50:00.000-04:00

This has to be the most important thing about being a webcam model. Be ready and willing to chat with your guest or members anytime they find you online. Sometimes even offline when they send you offline message via the website message centre or your own personal email. Let me know your schedule of when you will be online, and keep it up to date, your guest will understand there is times your not able to make it online but do not make it a habit they will view someone else. Give your guest 100% of your attention make them feel special and focus on them make them forget they are spending money on you but also make their money is being well worth spent. When you’re online remember to always stay in front of the camera – do not leave the room empty it does not look professional when someone enters a room and they are staring at a bed or even a girl sleeping. If you must leave from your camera let them know why (back in 5 minutes) and log off your camera completely, then when you are returned welcome back everyone, and continue your show.

Tentative webcam schedule

2008-05-10T17:11:00.004-04:00

Wow ! it's has been one busy month I have been running around trying to get settled into my new job, and just trying to figure out what new direction I am going to take with my website(s). I finally think I have it some what all sorted out, so because I was able to clear up a lot of distractions and stress I am now able to focus on getting back to what is most important to me webcam shows.

This is pretty much 100% official I will be doing webcam shows on these websites; cams, streamate, imlive, privatecamz, and sometimes rude. The schedule right now it is tentative meaning it will take me about 6 weeks or so to get use to the new added work schedule aside from my full-time 37.5 hour work week job that I have on the go and going well. So guys bare with me while I get settled into logging on my camera once again for you after working a grulling night shift in a busy call centre. For the most part you will be seeing me on my webcam from Fridays to Tuesday from 10:00 til 3:00 pm Eastern standard time.

Please be patient if I am not on right away at 10:00 am I do finish my full-time at 8am so I am pretty much rushing home to get on my webcam to put on the best show I can while I am still awake. I know it seems like a lot but I think it will all be worth in the end because of the wonderful plans that are ahead.

Also as things progress more, I will be adding in my time when I will be offering phone with webcam shows on niteflirt .... so of course I will keep you posted on that and of course what everyone has been emailing me about is when will I have my new websites up and running well good news is the plans of starting to rebuild my websites are expected to start next week if that meeting goes well I suspect that my new websites will be in motion of shooting, desiging and launch in the next 3 months. I will let you know how that meeting goes and also when things we will be rolling again. but no matter what happens I will be doing my webcam if things do not pan out as I am really really really anticipating.

A Simple Interview

2008-05-08T17:20:00.003-04:00

First of all tell the people how you got into the game?
Well of course maybe of you know I started of as a web cam model, performing on the website cams 5 years ago and still going strong.

How did you get your stage name?
Well the name Minnie has always been a nickname of mine, so I just rolled with it.

How does the industry differ in Canada compared to the United States?
Well there many difference Canada is basically left to work from the outside in, while the Americans get to work from the inside out, having to start from two different worlds makes breaking into the industry and being Canadian pretty challenging. For me my biggest way in the industry is using the wonderful power of the internet. Without there is no way I will be able to reach out to so many fans and people as I do.

What are your favorite types of scenes today?
Well when I do shoot videos, I pretty much enjoy everything that I do since I am still new at this whole being on camera and getting banged. So as I get more on the camera I will let you know which scenes I like to do best, but I am sure you will be able to figure that out as I go along in my web porn star journey.

How do you feel about the preceived unprofessionalism of black women in the industry.
Well I pretty much think it sucks with the way we have come so far to even get noticed way back in the 70s, then now after how many years we are still being treated as bottom feeders, it's pretty sick. I hate the way the low representation there is of black women in the industry, and I hate even more how we are portrayed in those degrading and stereotype rolls, and how also how we are treated when we do go out on shoots how it's completely and totally racist. and what also makes me sick about is the majority race does not even have a clue what goes on with us or even helping to change it because they are too busy being distracted by the racist lime light.

What performers do you enjoy working with?
Well again with the whole being new factor I haven't really got to work wtih that many stars out there but I am sure once things progress more I will have a few in mind I want to be on camera with.

Any performers you haven't worked with that you are dying to shoot?
Well not really sure I haven't really worked with that many people and I haven't really been paying attention to what hot performers are out there that I do want to work with, but once things are rolling again I will definitely let you know

What do you, when you are not shooting scenes?
Well I do try and keep myself busy, by working a regular 37.5 work week job, and having a life outside of porn which is really difficult to manage sometimes since I feel like I have a spilt personality. and I also try and keep my fans and admires up to date of what I am up to by doing webcam shows, phone sex and taking photos of myself.

Besides doing scenes what else are you doing in the business? IE Directing, Producing, Editing etc....
Well I am really getting into doing youtube videos, about 4 months maybe I started to just talk to the camera and lol I actually ended up enjoying it. and all my youtube clips I edit them myself that is pretty much it and I am trying to get into taking my own high-resolution photos for my website.

Now we get this all the time what do you tell someone who wants to get in the game?
Yea it is a question that can easily be answered if the people who claim they want to be in the business to get out there and do some research, if your in the states you have the upper advantage of getting into the business you basically have to contact all the agencies out there and get yourself going. Obviously if your a female you have more to go on, males your going to have to work harder no one cares if your good in your own bedroom that does not mean shit. Females your going to have 2 mind sets one how your a sex object and use that to your advantage and the other is to be in the know and always in the know, doing research, go to trade shows, read the legal happenings of the porn world it's changing constantly. and most important of all for everyone get your own website going before you even get yourself on DVDs and etc. your website will be there for you in the good times and bad and self-promotion is the most important thing you can, KISS method keep it simple stupid and if it's meant to happen to you be a big star it will or you will just end being in the middle with a website making decent to comfortable cash. Slow and steady is the way to get into this business.

What agency are you with right now?
I am not with any agency right now, too many politics why I am not with one, but I am still looking if I do not end up with an agency I am pretty happy where I am just having my own self internet presence.

What can we look for from you in the near future?
Only my best, I plan on really taking my name and really getting it out there, hopefully you will see me on DVD covers and in more titles out there and you will always find me on my website(s) , webcam shows, phone sex page and also appearing at shows whenever I can.

Are you going to be at Erotica this year? If so who will you be signing with?
No, I wish I was going but right now I am trying to rebuild a lot for myself right now so the big shows will have to wait a little longer. Hope to see you at one in the up coming future.

Tell us a little about life before porn? Where you from?
Life before porn wasn't that great, being an ackward teenagers and all trying to find my place in the world, and trying to fit into my own skin, I think I am getting better at that in the past 5 years I have really learned how great of a person I really am. and I am really looking forward to how much I can amaze myself in pretty much getting everything I want.

How did you feel when you saw yourself on video for the first time?
Lmao .... Well I thought I was one serious hot tamilly. Like really after doing my first few productions and I saw the results I thought I was one hot sexy biatch .... lol

Now for people who never heard of you what videos would you recommend?
Well the only place you can see me is online, all my work is online some of you know you can find some of my work on minnieholly.com but as for the future and current and fresh work I have yet to decide where that place will be of where you can find my stuff. and I am looking to get myself set up in some dvd companies out there.

What would you like to say to your fans?
my fans and admires know I love them in the most professional porn way possible, I love getting emails and blog comments from you and I always try and make sure what I show is my very best. I hope everyone who has been following me around for the last 5 years is excited as much as I am of what I am trying to accomplish.

Lastly what's the best way for your fans to get intouch with you?
By my email address is the best direct way to get at me. my youtube page, my space page and calling me directly via my niteflirt page or of course my webcam shows.

Where have I been ?

2008-05-07T16:59:00.008-04:00

Well damn ... I figure I get in a quick post. I don't even remember when the last I got to sit down and make a post to keep you guys updated of what is going in my life. So let's see what is new going on with me, well not really much, expect trying to settle into that whole 24/7 call centre job.

I really do enjoy it which is a first for me if you know me I do not really keep "real jobs" often, but this one it is completely different then any call centre job I had in the past. So it's near a month since I have held this job and it's going pretty well, I know know when having a real job it comes with haters, and ignorant people talking behind your back ..... LOL Yes I have a group of idiot girls at my work that won't stop about me at thier wits end. I am not getting into that all you need to know is there is some days at work where I wish certain people would just go away because I do not like them .... I need to find that song. Anyway about my website of course many have been asking I think the last post I made should have cleared up curiousity. but here is some more light to what is going to happening to my cute black ass. Next few to come I will be sitting down with another company local to me to figure what will happen with camgirlminnie.com and a new and fun exciting website with my ass getting nice white stuff on me. So of course I will keep you guys posted.

There isn't enough going on right now for me to do a video blog even though I did get my hair did. but I can certainly post a picture of the wonderful due I got sometime this week .... lol I'm too tired from night shift I can't even remember. You know I love ya guys ... I will do my best and greatest to make everyone of you slap happy. I really like the hair coulour I think next time I am going to use that hair colour in a full weave. P.S I haven't even had time to even see my boyfriend I mention before. he is also very busy with his job as well but every hump day I have seeing my ex-boyfriend .... hehehe So you will be happy to know your little girl minnie is still getting some juicy hard cocky.

Very good questions here are the answers

2008-04-27T02:49:00.003-04:00

You don't look the same as you did from this youtube video as you do on minnieholly.com, How long ago did you do that site?

Right I don't look the same as I do in my youtube videos as I did on minnieholly.com the reason for that is because of the hair styles that were chosen for those shoots and for the wonderful make-up that was done by Rosalinda. Plus all those hot bright lights I was under and the type of camera that was used most of what was shot on the minnieholly.com site was shot in HD my youtube video are shot with my JVC-290 miniDV camera that I do need to upgrade badly. I am thinking of saving up for my own HD camera or something with better quality in the miniDV cameras.

Plus that website was done 3 years ago. YES 3 years ago plus when I make my youtube videos I shoot them in my natural environment in my home studio plus usually I do not wear make-up in my everyday life plus I do not get outrageous hair styles nor do put myself under hot bright lights all the time unless I am doing webcam shows.

How much longer til you have your site out and what will we be able to see inside. It seems like it's taking 4ever to see your site.

How much longer, well they say good things happen to those who wait and in this case we all have been waiting a very long time I know that and I hate the fact all of us have been waiting this long I am hoping my new website will take 6 months to 1 year to be complete. As you know from seeing my proccess of getting myself online as hot cute ebony internet porn star this job has not one bit in the least have been easy it's a grulling job.

I don't know if i should join minnieholly.com now just to hold me over. I've got to get my fix!!

I have no problem at all if you want to join minnieholly.com it's some of my early work. YES I know I do great work which is why I am still pushing through to make sure there is a website, webcam shows, and phone with cam shows for you guys to enjoy and reach me at plus my youtube pages. I really do love pleasing all my fans and admires. Don't worry I won't get mad if you jump on joining minnieholly.com but just keep in mind that you will never get a fresh new update of that website everything and I mean everything from that website is over 3 years OLD! so if you really can not wait to see what I have coming up which will take time to rebuild and shoot, and experienment then you can join that site minnieholly.com everything that is going on with me and what I am doing is updated in this blog here my place on blogger and my youtube page.

Soo guys I will keep you all posted on ventures. hope you enjoy what is about to come out of this.

Happy 420

2008-04-22T20:40:00.001-04:00

Dick heads who run minnieholly.com

2008-04-17T11:32:00.003-04:00

Well recently, the annoying pain in the ass dick heads that run minnieholly.com have sunk to a new low. They are fully plagiarizing my website and this blog. You would think they would actually get more creative on their bull shit that they are doing but NO ... they are not.

Now for the members who have emailed me about how you joined minnieholly.com and to later find out I am no longer apart of the website in essence you pretty much lost your money to the dick heads of minnieholly.com if you think I would get a dime from that website ... here is a big tip I will not, you giving it to them dicks who run that site. Now I don't mind if you join the website what you will see on there is some of my most intense work I have done to start off my career, but now you should know that if you want to see anything in the future you will have to follow me.

If your just a member who does not really care that girl you jerk off to is not interactive with you, and answering your emails and posting on blogs and video blogs to keep you more interested in me that is fine too. Those members who have joined the site just to jerk off to a pretty girl I hope you enjoy the website.

Every so often I will get emails asking me where to see more of me. Well the answer to that is good and great things happen to those who wait. but of course I keep you updated and interested in me as much as I possibly can that is the reason why so many of you are posting on comments on my blog and send me fan email as well. I really do appreciate that.

and what is to come will be fabulous and spectacular that you will NEVER see on minnieholly.com. I was going to make a video blog about this issue but I do not even want to waste my energy wasting tape to do that. So I will just keep it in text. I swear those fuckers think I am stupid that I would not notice they are copying my words but you know what they are the ones who are stupid because they lost the most valuable part of the image minnieholly.com ME.

So this is the last time I am crying over spilled milk. I am pushing forward and prepared for the best journey of my life that is coming in the upcoming months and years to come.

Video blog for you

2008-04-16T01:08:00.003-04:00

Well here is another video I know you guys do enjoy when I do more then dance around the camera. I am working on other things I can do in my video blogs, but I guess the talking and dancing might actually be good enough because you guys get to see me act in my natural element.

This one is special because again it involves something I never really show to the outside world not even the new guy I am talking (dating) to right now. (Remember he is a boyfriend not a husband)

Yea as I mentioned in the clip I made today, I do talk about the minnieholly.com situation but not in too much detail I will in another blog when I feel more comfortable to talk about it. It's a pretty touchy subject but I am really glad you guys understand what happened and what is happening and what is to come. Don't worry I am not quiting being a cam girl or even quiting the possibility of being an online porn star either. I am enjoying every minute of what I do online for everyone to enjoy and admire.

Right now the way I see it and of course some of you too it can only get better from here.

Inside Peak of what I do in the day

2008-04-14T13:19:00.003-04:00

LOL ... I don't know what came over me when I made this video clip but I know you guys are going to love it. I have a ritual that I do when I am getting ready in the morning and when I am cleaning my apartment or when I am about to go out which is me playing my music IrieRadio.com from Itunes, and I dance I just dance my heart until I am done doing whatever it is.

The reason why this video is so special is that no one has seen me do this. it's just a me thing that I do and now I am actually comfortable to share with you guys.

Thanks for supporting me

2008-04-14T10:28:00.002-04:00

I know things have been crazy, probably a little more now with my face on the minnieholly.com site but I am not worried about that site, there isn't much they can do without me the star .... the main reason of that site .... ME ! I woke up this morning with a smile on my face because I am starting a new job today, but my smile will stay on a little longer, because of the supportive post I recently just approved.

As for TommyG I know you read my blog which is great, The reason I don't have a schedule yet is because things are very hetic of trying to figure out how I can fit one in. and don't worry about me having a boyfriend it's a boyfriend not a husband. hehehe .... Don't worry hun you will see me live an in action soon enough. in the mean time I suggest watching my webcam pre-recorded shows or listen to my voice recording.

As for the other post don't worry I have been putting a lot of pieces together for myself to have 2 new websites put together. I know when you go in the site (minnieholly.com) the pictures probably still don't match with what video they go to, and the solos are covered by some hardcore material. The sites I am working on won't be like that TRUST ME ... I am sure everyone will enjoy them fans, webmasters and admires.

Also if your wondering why I haven't done a video blog in a while it is because I am trying to sort out my new schedule don't worry once things smooth out you will not be able to get enough of me of how much I will be online.

Patients is the key for this one right now. Thanks for being so supportive everyone. I really really appreiciate it.

Got back on the webcam Tonight

2008-04-12T01:19:00.003-04:00

Well I think it's been a little over a month where I stopped doing cam shows I think was when that whole imlive drama of them dropping the % to 30 from 35. In that time somethings got a little crazy. Some how I ended up getting a boyfriend I am still not sure how that happened, so being the some what good girlfriend that I was trying to be I was trying to give him the most attention I could possible, in figuring out where we stand, if I coudl really handle having a boyfriend for most part of those obsticles I failed them I cheated on him twice. hehehe he knows of one of the events. he does not need to know about the second one because I ended it before it became of something.

I got myself full-time employement I start that job on monday I am pretty excited. Working in the call centre for some dating service company I will be creating new account for male members, and reviewing account greetings plus, porccessing payments for airtime, and as for the disater with the minnieholly website that has finally come to rest. I know some of you guys have joined that site that is ok, but in a few months of being a memmber of that website you might be dissapointed because I am not a part of it. but I will have a new websites coming along soon, the camgirlminnie.com I had to take a serious break from it. it will be done just not right now need to save up for some serious funding for it, and work on the plan of what I want that site to be. I even thought of a new porn name, so when I have full on I am fucking white men on camera you will know where to go for that hot content.

Just I drop in and keep everyone posted.

Spring cleaning and errands

2008-04-09T18:29:00.002-04:00

So I am up at like 10am maybe even early I don't know, all I know it was bright as hell this morning ... No I am not a morning person I will get up in the morning does not mean I am actually awake. Anyway I went to the bank, and I had some other errands to run, on my way I figure I would just run into the dollar store and pick up a few things ... Yea I came out with 12.

I came home tired as hell those bags were heavy, No car yet but I am working on that the convience of being in a busy buying a car is pretty pointless. but that is not the point of this. I am amazed of what is in my dollar store each time I go in there. I get pretty much all my household products, cleaning, kitchen stuff, and even things I would think that I would never find in a dollar store.

This is beyond being a bargain shopper this is just shopping smart.

Moving foward

2008-04-05T21:39:00.002-04:00

So I am sure you guys are wondering where have I been, well things have gotten a little crazy, with almost everything but now the wave is dying down and I can finally focus on the most important things in my life. Moving foward, Yup serious just taking some big steps to move foward as you know the website minnieholly.com will have old material that is over 3 years old and I will not be apart of the website or the company that handles the website.

Some people have been sending me rude emails abotu that particular website, but you guys who have been sending me those are not true fans and do not appriciate the work and effort I put in creating good sometimes great photos, videos and webcam shows. You guys are just plain haters.

So as a big step in moving foward I got my hair done today, why is that so important in my step of moving foward well its the most simplest way of giving myself a fresh start and I look damn sexy for a few hours of being in the salon and getting myself pampered. Next things to do on my pamper me list is my spa days I can't wait . I am hoping to do that in 2 weeks.

Also been working out a new plan of creating my websites. but in the mean time I will be doing webcam shows on streamate, cams and privatecamz and slowly going to be taking phone with cam shows calls on niteflirt. Plus taking on a full-time job been on a serious job hunting hope that goes well that way I can really rebuild in everything I want to do of being online.

Also my porn name will be changing as well it will still be Minnie but I will have a new last name just of think of me getting married again and changing my name ... hehehe this will be my third marriage hopefully my final one ... hehehe ... Yes I know my metaphors are cheezy but you know you love them. Hopefully you will see on the cam tommorow through out the day. hope to see you guys soon !

MinnieHolly.com March 31st

2008-03-19T13:29:00.002-04:00

If you have been following my blog, you will know that I am havign an extremely hard time with this company and it's just getting to the point where they are driving me up the fucking wall. I have been in a 3 months battle of trying to end my agreement with them and move on to start my own porn star website while I continue to build my website camgirlminnie.com but the problem is these fuckers just won't let me go that easily with their bull shit scare tatics and annoying fucking guilt trips. They have put me through some serious hell in the last 3 years and I am doing everything in my power to move far far far away from them.

So if you have been to the minnieholly.com website and notice is says launching March 31st that is great it will be but you will never see me activately on the website, I will not be doing cam shows for that site regarldess of whatever links they have put in there, and the content is over 3 years old and it will not be fresh and updated.

In the proccess of ending my agreement with them, these fuckers only have one job to do and it's taking them over 3 months to fucking do it. while they stall and give me more annoying bull shit and excuses and it's just getting on my nerves. all they have to do is send me my copies of my content so I can move forward with my career and rebuild my websites from scrach I am not even remotly interested in working with them no matter how much they constantly keep begging me or give me some bull shit guilt trip.

I want to be free and have the power to do whatever I need to do to take care of myself and enjoy my career in porn while I still can. is that so much to fucking ask for.

Cut the ties and part ways

2008-03-18T19:49:00.002-04:00

Every since I got into the porn industry I have always felt like an outcast, now that I am in it guess what I still feel like an outcast. I have very little friends and always sticking to being by myself I never been a social butterfly regardless of what my zodiac sign says.

Recently I have been in an annoying battle of trying to end a business relationship with the company who created minnieholly.com from time to time you will see me talk about them since that relationship has been bigger then the 7 years I spent with my high school boyfriend, now on top of that another relationship has ended with me and my now ex girlfriend Jasmine Jade she is a porn model running around on the internet doing fetish porn. The part that sucks about the relationship is I never felt like I was really in a relationship with her, Yea sure we got along we hanged out a few times but as for the whole bonding and connection and getting the support I needed from being a relationship it was never there she says otherwise but I don't care because in that whole relationship I was never really truely happy.

Now back to the main point minnieholly.com was a long stressful 3 year battle of flying to do shoots, promoting myself as hard as possible and trying to let the world know that this cam girl is not starting to fuck on the camera. The problem with that business relationship is the fact that I always felt like I was doing all the work when it was suppose to be a partnership. Now in the middle of tryign to break up I feel completely trapped, as I mentioned in a previous blog before all I want is my content that I worked so hard to producer and make fun, and enjoyable for me and everyone who sees but for some reason it's seems impossible to get but no way I am going to give up on that.

I know they are going to push forward with the minnieholly.com site and launch it they claim they will be doing that at the end of the month and I will be coutinuing my porn star career else where and pushing myself to have 2 websites of myself. I know it's going to be an interesting exciting journey.

Motivation in the weirdest places

2008-03-17T06:09:00.003-04:00

Last few days I was feeling very down and depressed, and pretty much completely giving up on the idea that I will have my own website and build my own internet stardom. I guess like always I was having some really high expectations of myself and not giving myself any credit for what I have been through in the last 5 years. I have been through a lot of personal shit, that took me a lot of power and courage to get out of, and also trying to hold it together with my dream of having my own website and personal modeling career.

In that time probably lost a lot of business contacts and also probably lost a lot of a friends long the way, but the way I see if if those friends weren't there for me at my lowest point they aren't really friends to begin with, and also goes with the people trying to give me false help. I recently came back from hanging out with a new friend who is also a photographer who is very willing and encouraging of helping me get my website put together in the idea that it should be and not being boggled with the idea that it has to be a cookie cutter white girl website, I am black I will never been a cookie cutter girl.

I am taking this time right now to get some brain stormy ideas of what type of photos I want to shoot for myself, and what I want my website to offer. I think I was jumping the gun of thinking that my website and myself had to be like everyone else out there. it was just too draining and emotionally trying. With the limited amout of black girl's out there with websites I am taking this oppurtunity to have my own place online and find my own creative voice, whether I want to beleive it or not I am a cute girl and I need to take advantage of that and show off my wonderful goodies to world. I know this blog is kinda showing my true self of how I feel and look at myself and it's one serious self conscience girl your seeing right now.

With plan I am trying to put in place and with the up coming photo shoot I am trying to put together for myself and launching my own website on my own terms I am hoping to see some serious great things happening for myself.

Imlive drops to 30% and I quit working with imlive

2008-03-16T02:36:00.002-04:00

I have been on imlive site for a while since around 2005, they pay me 35% of comissions I earn in private chat sessions that you spend, now they decide to drop what I earn to 30% . FYI my ass is not doing cam shows no less then 35%. so guess what guys IMLIVE is no longer a website you will be able to find my webcam shows on.

So now that clears up my schedule pretty nicely I will be doing cam shows on privatecamz, cams and streamate. the minute one of the decide to drop less then 35% it will be taken off my schedule just as fast as IMlive.

A racist ignorant narrow minded industry

2008-03-16T02:09:00.002-04:00

Recently I have been battling with the idea of if I will stick with having my website and continue my porn career. Why do I feel the need to quit well it’s just a few things that constantly keep coming up that will never seem to disappear. One of them being the fact the industry has this narrow minded need to separate and isolate the minority performers in the industry especially black performers right across the board in every inch of the industry. The other thing that keeps popping up, is when I try and reach out and get help, people have this way of going on how I don't their help or how they act like I owe them something or worst when I ask girls how they got themselves into the business and they claim they got into the business alone when they really had a boyfriend, husband or whoever else doing all the work.

Now trying to remember the point of why I made this blog, I made this blog because I wanted to point out very clear one major thing I am BLACK, african american, canadian black, parents were slaves back many millions of years ago black, but the industry either forgets it or have this way of making you feel that being black is horrible thing. Sometimes when it comes to being a cam girl and being a porn star I feel that way very much, one factor the hair issue another factor I can't wear what the white girls wear and assume it will not irratate or distory my skin.

Another thing is when I am trying to get a shoot and companies are gun hoe about booking me and I try to explain them to them what I need to shoot they right away make it seem like I am being dificult or I have an atittude problem, No idiots I am not a cookie cutter white girl. So there is no way in hell I can just show up to a set up and fling my white girl hair around and be ready. there is a proccess that has to be done for me to even consider going on the camera that goes for webcam shows which is a main reason why you guys haven't seen me do shows in the last little while.

The way this industry is an many industry out there being a natural black woman is not sexy, I could careless about the comments I will get after I post this saying how I am sexy the way I am, if that was true I would be able to make money being a natural black woman it's not happening. being a naturual black woman and being in this industry you might as well just commit suicide cause it's not going to happen. It's bad enough the way the industry treat black woman but it's also the fans too, so because of it I have to spend hours and money in the salon changing the way I look so you guys can actually join my website, buy a cam show or even find me attractive. Just to get that point cost about $1,200.00 sometimes just $400.00 on the hair situation alone.